company

the times that i miss birthday girl the most is when i long for company i won't need to speak to :) ... when we don't have to say anything to each other (when there is nothing urgent that needs to be shared) but we want the pleasure of each other's presence ... usually while reading ... in case any of you were wondering if we were just staring into space hehehe! ... and because lately i've been wanting, and having to read a lot, and sometimes want company other than mine, but can't speak while reading ... gf, i think of you a lot (hehehehe!)

this dynamic comes up a lot too with bf, this not needing to speak in the company of :), but maybe sometimes too much. with little time together, i worry and compensate for all the other-me's that aren't in the moment but wanted to share in their particular moment already past, and stuff the moment too full ;)). because i liked those other-me's too (lol) but they already got up and left the table, and went somewhere else, and i worry that they left no forwarding address.

i worry too much, little fussbody me. :)