Movie Mad

Because (1) because (2) because (3), kinda went movie-mad last week. Here's what I have to say:

Kilig ako sa love and friendship ng dalawang bida sa Sideways. Inaalagaan nila ang isa't isa. Cutie.

Tama si Hitch (Will Smith) na pagalitan ang mga lalaking hindi nakikinig sa mga sinasabi ng mga babaeng kanilang napupusoan. Listen carefully, no does not mean try harder. It means no.

Love is the pleasure of your company in my life, ang drama sa Phantom of the Opera. Everywhere you go let me go too, love me, that's all I ask of you.

Tawang-tawa ako kay Luisa noong nanggagalaiti siya kay Tenoch at Julio sa Y Tu Mama Tambien. Sabi niya kasi, sa totoo lang, gusto nilang dalawa ang isa't isa! Haha!

Super amazed ako kay Howard Hughes, ayon sa nalaman ko tungkol sa kanya sa Aviator. May fear of flying pa naman ako, eh siya crash ng crash di namamatay. Wala man lang parachute.

Di ko na nahabol ang A Very Long Engagement (nasa Iloilo na), at Ray, (nandiyan lang pero kailangan ko na magtrabaho) at Alfie(nasa Bacolod naman). Oy, pahiram, pahingi ng DVD. Hehe.

(1) dahil
(2) gusto ko
(3) makalimot

hehehe! :P

Happy Monday

Ahay, naluyag ka sa akon? Nasadyahan ko for you.
(Ahay, you’re in love with me? I’m happy for you.)

Hehe! Imagined this conversation, and thought it a fitting and wonderful response for a me in love with a someone or a someone in love with me. Because:

~Very often one can’t help falling in love or with whom or at what time (but you can help what to do about it)
~Falling in love is such an intense experience, impossible for the person in love to ignore or deny to one’s self
~It’s a SUPER minefield of insights and lessons
~And, all too often it’s really about the feeler rather than the object of, promise. (Promise, promise, you’ve heard it before, you’ll hear it again, you’re responsible for your feelings! :P )

So there! Enjoy the ride, the rollercoaster comes to a stop soon enough. ;-)

Stuff a Capricorn takes to the Pool

1. self-help book for class
2. tortillos and potato chips, the ones we forgot to take to tagaytay
3. sunblock, goggles, shampoo, soap, lotion
4. sarong for the recliner
5. pen and paper
6. drinking water
7. moolah
8. change of undies, and clothes
9. HIGH SCHOOL YEARBOOK.

Hahaha. The last one for the edification of friends. I dug it out the other night after a barrage of emails on the high school egroup about our erstwhile prom song.

Anyway, I loved the day at the pool.

We were the only ones by it, in it.
I did so feel I needed some exercise and swim, I did! 'Twas good! Great! Particularly because we got to the pool earlier this time, and the sun was still good.

It was funny how the pool would fill with leaves every time a breeze shook a nearby tree. Poor Ramon had his work cut out for him this "autumn".

It was funny how we kept convincing Ramon that the pool would overflow! It did look like it! But he paid us no heed!

It was funny how we sang all the nice love songs we could think of. I did every time I came up for air!

It was funny how we were -- sat or dozing by the recliners with books, swimming, munching, singing.

Ahhh, the good Saturday life.

how lovely

that my fuschia top peeks out beneath my black sweater :)

that am going swimming in five hours :)

that i can sleep all afternoon after swimming :)

or watch y tu mama tambien :)

that i can after all swim to the serenity within me :) (even though the reasons for being aggravated never end)

that this weekend am working on my personal mission statement for class

that being aggravated has pushed me to do many good things just to stop myself being aggrieved (hehehe)

that life goes on :)

that i discovered ice monsters for the first time

that i found copies of two books on my class reading list

that the answers to my work dilemmas mentioned earlier this year are beginning to show :)

that work is working out, and people are working together (yehey)

that you should watch phantom of the opera the 2004 movie, and sing "Anywhere you go
let me go too ... Love me - that's all I ask of you ..."

that i'm beautiful, and so are you ;-)

wait lang wait lang wait lang

and before i finally go... to the lovely night that awaits me... and my light-blue chinelas! ... PA KANTA NGA ULIT! Isang stanza lang ;-)


I've got it all,
it seems, for all it means to me,
But I sing of things I miss
and things that used to be.
And I wonder every night
if you might just miss me too,
And I sing for you I sing for you.

speech

Para sa blogging at para sa summer

Sa totoo lang, nagbo-blog ako para may lagayan ako ng mga kung anu-anong bagay na nasa isip ko. Minsan kasi masyado nang maingay sa loob ng aking ulo, kailangan may lagayan para maka-move on. Kaya tama rin sabihin na di ako nagbo-blog dahil gusto kong magsulat o di kaya dahil gusto kong magkuwento. Mas madalas, nagbo-blog ako para para huminga ng mas malalim o para makahinga ng mabuti.

Kaya huwag na lang kayo magtaka kung nagbo-blog ako ng puro di malinaw. Just thinking aloud :) is all. Lagi nga nangyayari na pagka-post na pagka-post ko, nalagpasan ko na ang kung anumang isyu na pinroblema ko. At may bago na naman. May mga moods na mabilis lang lumipas, meron namang pabalik-balik, meron ding parang smog sa Metro Manila, di na matanggal-tanggal. Wala lang, ganito na talaga ako.

On the whole, masayahin akong tao, kahit di man yon halata (Baka kasi nakasimangot ako nung nakita mo ako. Mahirap na kasi ang laging nakangiti, mas lalong gumaganda hehehe). Di kasi ako masyadong mukhang excitable pero sa totoo lang, nahirapan akong manatiling malungkot kahit sa mga araw na malungkot ako. May tonic water yata sa dugo ko. Lagi ko pa rin nakikita ang masaya o di kaya ang nakakatawa.

Halimbawa na lamang ang araw na ito, o di kaya kahapon. SUMMER NA. Sinabi ko na ba kung gaano ko ka mahal ang summer? Naluyag ako sa summer! Kakaiba ang feeling pag summer! Kahit sobra na akong naiinitan at ang feeling mo kapag nasa labas ka ay para kang sinusunog ng araw, magaan ang loob ko kapag summer. Kahit na tumatagaktak ang pawis. Bad trip lang ako kapag di ako nakakapunta ng dagat. Kaya mahirap manatiling malungkot dahil simula kahapon, summer na talaga.

Gusto ko na nga bumili ng tsinelas na naman. At ang dami ko pang mga white na shirts and shorts left over from last year's summer. Yehey, eh ano ngayon pakialam ko kung maglalabasan na naman ang love handles ko. Basta summer na naman at masaya ako.

recalcitrant but willing

te sige ah.
indi na lang.

i give up.
(naks, ;-))

i surrender to whatever it is
the universe deems
a better idea.

am gonna fade away into the very walls
(they could be pink).

happy weekend
a very long engagement with myself.
(the movie currently escaping me)

here's to a long hot
sweltering passionate
smouldering summer.

didn't i just say
i give up?
yes, but i've always said yes to life ;-).

summer na, swim ta!

tara, kanta tayo :)

It's The Lover (not The Love)
Tiffany (Greatest Hits)

He broke your heart and said goodbye
After promising forever
You wonder why you even tried
He was such a good pretender

The love you gave was all in vain
And nothing anyone can say
Could ever make you love that way again

It's the lover not the love
Who broke your heart last night
It's the lover not the dream
That didn't work out right
If you listen to your heart
You'll know it's true
It's the lover not the love
Who deserted you

Don't stop reachin' for the stars
Let tomorrow live inside you
And just remember who you are
Keep the faith and love will find you

It's the lover not the love
Who broke your heart last night
It's the lover not the dream
That didn't work out right
If you listen to your heart
You'll know it's true
It's the lover not the love
Who deserted you

It does no good to second guess
Whether love is wrong or right
If it was really meant to be
He'd be with you tonight

It's the lover not the love
Who broke your heart last night
It's the lover not the dream
That didn't turn out right
If you listen to your heart
You'll know it's true
It's the lover not the love
Who deserted you

permission granted

letting go is just another way to say i'll always love you soooooo ;-)

mwahahaha. inappropriate song lyric for my thoughts below but anyway....

i remember when a gf of mine -- her precious heart for pete's sake! -- was being sorely taken advantage of by this undeserving guy!!!!!! (hehehe! wala bang bastusan ng minahal?) i was soooo mad, i couldn't help myself, i intervened and gave the guy the full benefit of my opinions! ... however, when precious gf herself became mad for herself, i completely stopped being angry (oooops i think much to gf's bewilderment at that time.) i was happy that she was able to stand up for herself already, and let the anger go myself. :)

i remember when i felt another gf was hurt unduly!!!!! i was sooo mad and with me it always always shows. but a wise person said, let your gf experience this thing for herself, and learn from it what she needs to learn. so there, i too let it go, and felt much better, assured by the advice.

so now that another friend seems to be feeling better about the world, i can now allow myself to be piqued at him. hahahaha! even for just a moment or two ;-).

happy full moon in pisces, kiddies.

February 24: Full Moon in Pisces
Once again, it's time for the emotional Moon to shine her bright light on a tender issue. The topic this time will be intuition. If your antennae tell you to let something go, let it go -- no matter how difficult that might be. This full Moon is in Pisces, which means that we're all going to act according to our gut reactions. Don't argue with yourself. Listen to that voice in the back of your brain. It's time to forget facts and concentrate on what's really important.

right? right?

a friend showed me a pic of an ex-crush of hers. he looks like this guy we know, or this guy we know looks like him (the ex-crush is way cuter). funny because a few months back, i also told this same friend of mine that a guy she was dating then reminded me also of the same guy we know. but the difference was, the date and the guy-we-know seemed the same way as opposed to looked the same way -- they slouched the same way, behaved the same way ... isn't it interesting how people can seem alike in different ways? :D

also, sometimes when a new guy comes into my life (not that one has ;-) really really) it's funny how all my ex-men (not many) seem to rise up within me, particularly the most recent one, whoever he may be. it's like you're playing an old-new cd, he's new but he will remind you of those who were there before him. truly, we live in many parallel universes.

sometimes i feel sad because the best-thing-since-coffee-crumble-ice-drop has left the playground without me. and so i'm left sitting in the corner of the now deserted playground licking a coffee crumble ice drop.

the capricorn horoscope for today says: The universe has temporarily bestowed super powers upon you. What kind? Well, take a peek in your cosmic utility pack. There's even more of the ability to organize, categorize and systemize. Scary, huh? Just don't get crazy with it. If you find you're making lists of your lists, it might be time to lie down for a while. That really would be more than slightly over the top.

haha! i think this is like LITERALLY PHYSICALLY true of Capricorn environments. I know of many who have piles and piles of things they have organized categorized and systemized.

now, it's not time to lie down, but time to spoon the small glass of frosteeee an officemate brought me. yihee!

giving boyet problems

went downstairs to wash my glasses. boyet - choy to me - by the sink.

nagkaon ka na nang? -- Have you had lunch, 'Nang?
wala pa, Choy. -- Not yet, Choy.
ano man, wala ka pa nagkaon? -- But why not?
wala. tamaran ko magkaon Choy. -- I don't feel like it, Choy.
baw, biskan diutay lang, para lang may sulod ba ang tiyan. -- You need to eat, even just a little. You need to put something in your stomach.
hehe, pa ugtas ta ka Choy? -- Hehe, am I giving you problems Choy?

running water

Bato bato sa langit, ang tamaan, 'wag gumanti. Hehehehe.

Weepy at the end of a long happy day, thinking about people I love.

You, with whom I’ve scarcely talked about the love of my present life. We chatted earlier and telling you everything on my chest was as natural as breathing. I’ve only really left you notes here and there because we haven’t had time to talk lately but everything was just a matter of course. I never even needed to explain myself, just told you the most recent parts of my continuing story. And it’s not like I met up with you only last week. (Because I haven’t and we can’t.)

You, I loved you! :) You who hardly ever expresses how you feel not even to yourself and yet cuddle each night like a baby, like cuddling is the only way to sleep and wake up. You can never make me believe that someone who cuddles like that has no feelings and does not care. Oh my beloved with the fragile heart and of the funny chats. I know you because I too am you.

You, who broke your heart while we were both away? What is it that makes you so sad only you can talk about it with yourself? I cry because I miss you, and it’s not even as if we have the most brilliant conversations all the time (sometimes we do) or that we’ve found the equilibrium of who we are (because we haven’t) or that at this time we are already each other’s comfort (because we’re not, we have other people, and ourselves for that). Still I wish that we were more firmly in each other’s lives.

You, who has seen me through all of my more recent goodbyes, and my more recent highs, who knows like you know the palm of your hand, what’s important and what’s not, when’s the day to say good luck, and when’s the day to ask how I am, keeper of all the stories and tales.

You who messaged back if it would be ok to get back to me midweek if you’d have time this week to watch that movie miniseries you asked me to watch with you because you would rather have realtime feedback. Awwww, how cute.

You, and you, who both messaged me you love me yesterday. In case the wind blows west, chester, or even though the sedate Capricorn is a drama queen, honeybun. You would be happy with whatever would make me happy – London, Quezon City, New York (lol).

You who called me repeatedly before we last talked even though the phone remained unanswered forever. You called and we talked about this and that, never mentioning things best left in the past, because we’re truly good for good.

You who persists in sharing with me all your stories though I may share mine or not, though I may stick to my silent self or not (I’ve lately experienced what you may feel with me), though I may be with you or not. Together we hold up our own patch of the sky.

You who adores me from afar, and it’s not as if you and I didn’t know it. (Te sige lang ah. Anhon ta lang kay amo lang gid na ya :-D.)

And you, even you, who persists in taking offense (in private and as tall as mountains) at the issues I raise. My special talent seems to be pressing all your buttons though I only start with the intention of showing how you to love me more. Look at me, my hands are raised in surrender, I mean no offense no battle

And that will be all for tonight, as the taps have finally run dry. (Oh, bless.)

busy buang

it is a most cheerful day ladies and gentlemen for no reason that i can think of except for a nice change. i feel irrepressibly back to my old self today. or back to my irrepressible self. you know that yahoo emoticon fluttering her lashes? that's me. which is not to say that i've lost my other newer self but am quite back for now. i lack sleep my back hurts and i've got deadlines a mile long but i feel so

*flutter flutter flutter*

hehehe. let's party!
(gasp)

Bed or Bust

A friend and I have launched a contest! Cutest and coziest bed! Mine or his! Lol.

This is my blog and I declare that I have won the contest.

Hihihi. We've not been in each other's beds, unfortunately.

Para sa Sinumang May Pakinabang sa Mga Sumusunod

1. Wag pilitin ang ayaw. Pero pag gusto mo talaga, di sige pilitin mo. Hanggang magsawa ka sa kapipilit. Tapos iyakan mo na para pagkatapos nang parang mamamatay ka na sa lungkot at pangungulila, ok ka na ulit. Hehe.

2. Hayaan mo lang ang lahat ng mga minamahal mo – yong mga taong you care for ;-) – hayaan mo lang silang magkamali, kahit pa nga paminsan minsan ay magdurugo ang puso nila. Alalay lang. Basta ba matibay ang kanilang pagkilala at pagtingin sa sarili, ok lang sila. Matutuwa sila sa iyo dahil pinapayagan mo silang maging tao – bukas, bulnerable at natututo. At ibibigay din nila sa iyo ang ganoong espasyo, kasi pati din naman ikaw magkakamali. Hehe, walang lusot kaibigan. At saka, di ka naman mapapamahal sa taong perpekto di ba?

3. May pangatlo pero nakalimutan ko na. Wahahaha.

online my self

it's not all balance and groundedness around here.

i allow myself my little amusements.

like staying up all night for no reason just because i like the feeling of going to bed at six in the morning just when your head is about to burst from sleepiness. it's straight on to oblivion, no side trips!

more often, it's staying on the internet forever, until my eyes bulge out, and i have no choice but to stay away, to go away and stare at ... what were once green fields... anything but the flaming screen!

like today, i think am going to need to walk off all this tinkering time.

:D :P :-))

truth is

truth is, mommy should have just taken the keys with her. she should have a set of keys to her house :).

but i insisted they swing by school to give me the keys so I could say goodbye at the very lastest.

in the Philippines, it's not goodbye when there's even one free second left till goodbye. lol.

i'll send you a set of keys, promise.

just checking in via Louis

am still alive.
the fridge needs rearranging.
the laundry needs sortin'
chores need doing
and there are deadlines to meet.
work is welcome in a steady pace.

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

there's even a laptop that needs tweaking
(and voices inside my head whisper dsl)
books to read, miles to walk and meditate,
blessings to be grateful for.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

i look up at the four pm gently sunny sky, weepy
listen to the songs, listen to more new songs
think about what to do with you
conclude the best thing is to be me

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying I love you.

saturday afternoon.

I hear babies crying, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll never know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world.

:) when a smile can mean more than a million useless words, i smile.

at that time

at that time it was
the funniest and most embarassing thing
in the world and though the memory
left my cheeks pink and hot
i survived, laughing,
and applauded myself for my nerve.

(we even chuckled about it together, long after)

now, i am still laughing but ever
wary and weary of rebuff, the slightest
hint (even nothing mistaken as no)
clams me up, safe and traumatized
and, oh no dear me, oh no.
yes will do and it would be wonderful.

february

I live on the edge of tears, in the well of love, on the brink of laughter, in a sea of amusement, in an ocean of affection, within the rise and fall of tides, of sadness, in pools of loneliness, bathed in sunlight, in sin, in hope and vanity, steeped in the cool cellars of honesty and acceptance.

I live.

Wala Diri

Kanami kay nahidlaw ko sa imo.
Kag biskan nahidlaw ko
Wala sing kulang sa akon
Sa amo ni nga tinion.

Indi ko daw mapatay.
Indi man daw gapangita sang atensyon
Nga daw na-adik sa kilig kag
Gapangita dugang.

Indi man daw nakulbaan.
Wala gapangita pag-aruga
Nga daw gapilit sa sigurado nga
Ginahalinan sang pagpalangga.

Indi ah.
Nahidlaw ko sa imo
Kag nanamian nga kanami man gali
Sang may ginahidlawan.

hakhakhak

oo. totoo. salamat. sa capricorn-v, capricorn-v, capricorn-v episodes!

hahahahahahaha! nakakatawa di ba? natawa ka naman kahit nalaglag na ang mga tenga mo di ba?

so wala lang talaga yong cancer-c episode na yon. masaya, parang mga tala na tinutulok. hehehe!

mom and me

Been spending time with mumsicle, and here are some observations:

1. kasing kulit, a friend calls it "super usisa." hehe!
2. super explain :D
3. super rearrange furniture :D
4. not to mention "hiyak-hiyak" tiyan in edsa traffic, and holding on to the handles for dear life.

iba ang may pinagmanahan :D

twice as

Sometimes I feel like I "graduated" from one aspect of my life to "move on" to something that is at least twice as hard, or has the potential to be twice of everything -- twice as joyful, twice as sad, twice as hard.

But isn't that the point of evolution? Oh dearie, there's that point again.

naliligaw (na post)

It always happens quite quickly. I may be a woman of few desires (a few desired men :P) but I always seem to know within the length of the first real long time together that I want him. I can go for years and years without truly wanting anyone (except vestiges of the last one wanted), meet one and know within that first day that I want him.

I say I want him because I read somewhere a few weeks ago that that’s the more honest utterance. It’s how the Spanish say I love you, “Te quiero.” I want you. Gusto kita.

Perhaps many days and nights later, when I would have had the chance to get to know that one, I’ll look back on that first episode and smile ruefully at myself. I may not have known what I was getting into. I would have realized just how little I knew the guy when I first said I wanted him. Standing atop many complications and complexes later, I could have struck on the head the girl that was I, the one with the lovestruck eyes on that first day, “Silly woman.” Because it is never as simple as it seems on that first day.

But if I really think about it, I have yet to change my mind about those that I desired, and got into relationships with. I may have fumed and ached and cried, been in bliss and laughed till I almost died. But they all had to happen. I have never (even if I may have said otherwise many times) really regretted them. I know I wanted them. I want them no longer as of this time but the truth is, I did.

For the most part (there have been exceptions and I enjoyed those too), I have been attracted to men with a sense of their personal power – the ones who knew what they wanted, knew they were good for something. The ones too who knew they wanted to talk to me, and did so. If you stood them all in a line, they mostly wouldn’t look the same. Except that if you started to get to know them better, you would know.

Then too I have always had this overwhelming (lol) desire to be held, to hold hands, to touch base physically. I have probably wasted many long moments and conversations, not being truly in that moment together, but yearning instead for the touch of the hand, wondering endlessly if he was going to take mine. I find that I look for that reassurance that I am wanted, in that touch of the hand. Sometimes I’ll need that touch even before I can even share more of myself. Pleased and confident, I can say, this is who I am, and I am glad we want each other.

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Whenever I am asked who I loved the most, I will say I loved them all – the different me’s that existed at those different times -- with all of the passion that lies quietly and fiercely within me. And often, I cry and grieve just as much and just as hard for the loss of my illusions, my hopes and my dreams as for the real love and connection that existed. If not harder. All those wish-we-could-have-done-that’s and wish-we-could-have been-that’s, they are the real stakes thru the heart in the times of loss and leaving.

But it is when you grieve that you know what you truly want. Some of those desires and daydreams wither away, but often in moving on, you are clarified of just what lies in your heart, and how what was, in fact, wasn’t.

Today I grieve for the loss of an almost-romance. I may be grieving too early, or too late. Or just at the right time. Scott Peck would say as he does in The Road Less Travelled, that I am being honest and adjusting my map of reality. I find that I am no longer comfortable chasing after my romantic dreams of me with this wonderful person. I want to give them up.

(I also find that the universe has lately been very kind. I have had to lose my hopes for men, people who were/ are truly wonderful, with whom I can picture having warm friendships with for a lifetime. The ones with whom your spirit says – “Yes, I have known you, and I have loved you and wanted you, and I will always carry that knowledge and that caring within my very cells.”)

It can only get better from here on, but in the meantime, I grieve.

Comment to the Right

Sayang, I lost my 20++ comments to the million miles for love post last year, and all other comments prior to October. Of course, Priestess has long told me that the free Haloscan account has limited memory, but I neglected to focus on the stuff I would like to read many years from now and giggle over.

I can't remove haloscan yet coz of your comments from October to today. Sorry sweeties, I am sorry for all your ruminations on this blog that have been lost, but maybe we're done with those already. Thanks for the gift of yourselves.

Comment to the right, care of Blogger. Thank you for your cooperation. Hehehe!

ang sarap ng may pinagsamahan

Spontaneous. Napailing ako kagabi noong naisip ko na bigla na lang kami nagkaroon ng "parang kailan lang" moments ng isa kong kaibigan. Sabi ko sa kanya ng mga bandang tanghali: parang kailan lang noong gusto mo siya pero hirap ka. pagkatapos ng maraming taon, gusto mo na naman siya pero ang saya mo na. ang ganda mo.

Noong bandang alas 9 ng gabi siya naman ang nagsabi: parang kailan lang na nagdinner tayo at sinusuri ng kanyang mga mata ang puso mong puno ng pagmamahal. ngayon, iba na.

Napailing ako at napangiti. Nakakatuwa naman isipin kung paano nananatili ang pagkakaibigan sa maraming yugto ng ating buhay.

Nagbabago din ang pagkakaibigan, madalas sa nakakatuwang paraan. Halimbawa na lamang kung paano nag-iiba ang lingguwahe namin ng aking kaibigan ayon doon sa kung ano ang lingguwahe ng iba pa naming importanteng kausap. Minsan, panay English ang text. Sa susunod na buwan, Filipino naman. Pero noong isang taon, panay Ilonggo ang aming kuwentuhan.

Hindi rin nagbabago ang prinsipyo: Kung saan ka masaya, eh di suportahan ta ka.

(Kahit ba minsan madalas nagbabago ang aming isip kung ano ang makakapasaya sa amin, o di kaya alam naman namin na hindi talaga makakapasaya ang isang bagay. Minsan, may mga bagay lang na dapat daanan. Paano ka matututo kung hindi mo dadaanan? Salamat na lang sa Diyosa at may mga kaibigan. Tutal, nandoon naman ang tiwala sa isa't isa na mahahanap din ang tamang timpla. Kumbaga sa adobo, try and try again hehehe.)

Commitment. Ang pagbibigay ng panahon. Ah basta, ang sarap ng may pinagsamahan. :-P

truthfully

Surprise, I'm kind of happy you showed up.
Truthfully I
I'm finding finally.
Truthfully you
You helped me find at last.
Truthfully we
Are finding out what's true.
And Truthfully I am finding out what's you.
Truthfully, I really can't explain, I'm floating, I'm smiling again.
Truthfully, I can't ignore you, cause I've been waiting for you.
Truthfully, I'm not desperate, I haven't changed my mind since we first met,
But the last thing that I want to do is to tell you that I'm right for you.
Truthfully I
I'm finding finally.

-Lisa Loeb