pagbubuno ng pag-ibig (ang bongga)

in spur of the moment spontaneous radical chat therapy, gf and i come to insight ;). here's mine.

me: kasi it is something in us that responds to something in them. parang you are loving in your lover what you are (not) loving/ seeking in yourself... yon sabi ng mga libro
me: na kailangan ko pang pagmunimunihan para makarelate ako wahahahaha
gf: haha!
gf: ako din...

(after a short trip to the bathroom :p)
me: puwede guro ah
gf: ano?
me: for instance i was attracted to the "power"/ kagalingan ni X. "power" (power-poweran) ni Y. ka machohan ni Z (acknowledging my macho self) and strike-anywhere-kebs/dedma-to-all ni W.
me: hahahahaha
me: gusto ko pala talaga maging "lalaki"
gf: :D
me: hahahaha
gf: naku... mahaba ang listahan koooooooooooooo
me: pero baka natural yon (na ganun ang aking attractions), kasi suppressed yon in my feminine spirit
me: kaya daw may yin and yang chuva. na dapat pala in one person instead of 2 peas in a pod
me: tapos tapos, kaya ako attracted kay C kasi i could safely express my "male" self sa kanya
me: wahahaha. self-talk therapy.