Friday, March 05, 2004

Lost in Translation

Everyone wants to be found.

i can relate with this movie :-). I like its silences, I like the way many things are unsaid. Sometimes there are too many words in the world. Or there's too much of a premium placed on people who can say the most words with the loudest voice. Like they have more rights to live or to be happy :-). There's hardly any value given to peace and quiet. You know it's the quiet ones you have to watch out for ;-) (whatever that means). There's just too many things that can't be explained or articulated. :-) Or rather there are many things that don't need to be or shouldn't even be articulated or explained. Still, these things are beautiful and real :-) (aside: don't you think even sadness is beautiful?)

(yet another aside: one of the best greeting cards i've ever come across is about sitting quietly on a swing with someone without having to say a word)

i like Bill Murray's face. I think he deserved the best actor nominations/ awards that he got by virtue of his face alone :-) (but I can't explain it nor do I want to nor should I even try to... watch the face yourself :-) ). I started out thinking I wasn't going to like his character -- just another dissipated man, soul-less in having pursued pleasure for so long. But he turned out to be so likeable :-) so endearing in his helplessness at the absurd situation he found himself in.

absurd situations :-) i can relate with always seeing the absurd in everything every day. and it's not even looking down your nose at things. it's just funny kind of funny that. and how nice funny funny is when someone else can see just how funny funny can be. :-)

i can also relate to the feeling of disconnection. i always used to feel like that after out of town work trips when i was younger. i used to feel so sad coming back from trips and it seemed like it didn't matter to anyone. i think that was one of the reasons i got addicted to calling up my ex (whose real name was trouble). i probably often fooled myself into thinking there was a connection to be made there (ahh but this is herstory, water under the bridge gone into the ocean). thinking about the movie after the movie, i thought to myself how it's been so long since i felt like that. there's so much love in my life right now and a lot of connections (thank you cellphones and the internet :-P) and i thank everyone who is part of the precious cycle of giving and receiving love (precious girlfriends, family, colleagues :-D, myself).

i can also relate to feeling home is when youre with a friend at a strange place (Capricorns will cling to the familiar). Also i can relate to how things can be intimate without being physical :) (in fact sometimes physicality can be the most impersonal and alienating thing in the world).

and i can relate to the thought of just how scary it must be to bring kids into the world and be entirely responsible (i mean who am i to deign to bring someone up, to teach him or her my view of the world and of life when i can never assure them that this is a way of doing things that works?).

and lastly i can relate to the goodbye scene. i think in my life i've had many goodbye scenes and many's the time when it was my gfs who saved me (there was the thought of meeting them and their love after goodbye that sustained me). i can certainly relate to not crying now, definitely later. i can relate to that hug :) i think at the end of that movie, i craved for that hug for them. i am glad for that hug, i think i have probably wished for such a hug many times.

i thought the girl was beautiful :)

i can relate to quiet but intense without anyone really knowing or needing to know. :-)

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