going the extra lap

still and all, I have learned.

that there is always always always better timing at work in the world than i can ever hope to set up (hehe!) and i am glad to learn to make it work for me

that i can have endless patience, and then snap, and it needs keen observation to figure out the breaking moment. and the person responsible to make sure that that moment is known to myself, or is intercepted (before the world explodes)... is me (hehehe).

that after all, all that we need ever ask of ourselves, and our intimates, is mindfulness. that we are are aware and are mindful of where we are and what we are doing. to be our mind's little person, so to speak, observing what we are thinking and feeling. and we can only hope that our loved ones also be mindful of us, and us of them.

that i do want to grow :D. and that you can always stick with the people who want to grow too.