gaga girl

was all set to work earlier, after a happy sandwich that i've been craving for for a week or so (yes, the sandwich is feeling positive affect, so there! hehe!). i was ready, set, go.

but then i got interrupted, and didn't have my space to myself (these things cannot be helped of course because it's not really just my space, just that i had claimed it for my review of lit ;)) ) and i. just. couldn't. wait. to. be. alone. again. and i was dying for it, and finally, i was, and still i didn't couldn't work.

i had taken a break, and bryan was online. and bryan and i are perfectly fine. and today is a non-chatty day for me (in any form or medium except this blog hehe), and online, he, too, was in non-chatty form with me. and that's ok. and i really like how i don't get mad at bryan anymore these days (which means we're good with each other). but then i can't rid my system of this insiduous idea that if you love each other, and especially if you don't see each other that often, then the norm is that you should be talking. this, even if i really didn't feel like it anyway.

and even if i already knew that now and then "in love, alone," is normal. :)

and this, even if i already knew, that if i should get lonely (for some reason or no reason), i should ride it out till the end of its days, so to speak, because that's really the only thing that will cure it anyway, and not him or her or whatever else so i might as well spare people the psychic burden. :)

so i went upstairs, and cried instead.

but now, tita e is online and am happy. lol. and i've just realized something funny funny. ;))

ps. bryan,ilabyu. ;))