queen of the world

you want the world, someone said to me very recently in the middle of the night, in all caps. I WANT THE WORLD, yes I now agree. (I really need to pay attention to the things people say to me that I resist, that turn out to be right :D).

but perhaps, yes, we need to want the world :D. doc r and chester too said we need to blurt it out. we want the world, we want this world, this is what we want. we need to be unafraid to want and say the things that we know will make us happy.

when it's from the gut, and it's for the good, there's going to be no stopping it from hurtling into your life. just have your arms out ready, open, waiting to catch, ready to be in the shower of blessings that we all so richly deserve, just for being who we are.

maybe this is what all this heartbreak i'm swimming in right now is all about. all because deep down i know i want the world, and whispered it some time ago, timidly hesitantly, this is what i want.

and so now the world is changing changing changing taking a new form giving birth to new ideas and new situations (my angel card isaiah) and as i cry and rail, i know deep down i am happy, and i wanted this so i could follow my truth, and you could follow yours, and if we act on our truths, we are still loving each other, in various ways and various forms, and there'll we'll be still.

i want the world, with angel astara :)

p.s. vv does angel readings for friends, in continued angel'mazement, and because it helps a lot (to learn, to ask, to get to know). so, you only need to say if you want one. we learn together :)

p.s. bryan, if you find your way here again, i asked if you'll be ok, and my friend the angel daniel came out, said you're going to be married ;). something to look forward to, wouldn't you say? (no, i'm not documenting it, but i want to be there, so there :P)

Incidentally, from ivillage:

February 1: Mercury conjunct Neptune

There are two ways to find your way to the future. Fortunately, or unfortunately, you've got to put them both into operation at the same time to make your dreams come true. First off, you need to visualize what you want -- to see it happening as if you're actually watching it on television. Next, you have to be absolutely, completely sure that you can make that dream a reality. Mercury is in charge of thoughts, and Neptune holds jurisdiction over dreams -- so they're the pair you need to bring about your grand plans. While they're always accessible, they're holding hands at the moment, meaning their influence is just unbeatable. Use it. To the max. It's time.