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state of the flower address (hehehe), and a clutch of subtitles like

(i can't help thinking maybe GMA's glee last week can be summed up in this rhyme: if i'm happy and you know it, clap your hands! clap clap clap)

1. compliments of M. Dean (yes i also want a free b. wax, and if i ever get to Roma... :)... oh Marilyn :) ... thanks for being on Team Aniston!... yes watch the breakup and observe carefully as the bartender best friend metamorphoses for a second, blink and you miss it, it's very ... weird... hehehe)

2. introducing existential therapy

last week even though i was late to class because i did our counseling plan (hehehe kelangan talaga nakadeclare), i still got in at a good enough hour to actually start to understand what existential therapy means. it means that, yes, flower power, life sucks.

life sucks big time even for those who have a roof over their heads and food on the table.

reallife lifesucks examples: when you find your life's work and it's a long lonely struggle where most don't understand, and those who mean the most occasionally don't either, and it's a crusher; when a parent dies, and then a parent-in-law dies soon after, and the parent of your best friend dies too; and many other life-sucky stories.

but it also means that this life, this sucky life is yours. it's totally yours. and you have this lifetime to make what you want of it. it is yours, hold it. suckyness and all, clasp it. own it. shape it.

even in the very depths of numbness, it's your choice. (an example given for a lover left here pining for a loved one abroad was, at least it is I who is experiencing this pain and loneliness for the both of us)

and so, sometimes in that often sucky life that you claim for yourself, many good things also happen. like the people whose lives you touch and change with your heart-full dedication to work.

or this picture that cheers me up no end that magya calls the hair that grew two faces. hehehe.