because explaining is a thing of beauty and a joy forever

hahahaha!

here's my official explanation to my aquarius gf as to why i keep listening to that sappy love-forsaken mushy and pathetic (super lait!) song Because of You (with versions popularized by Keith Martin, Kyla and Paolo Santos but individually and not altogether)

it's because i like that one line: If ever you wonder if you touch my soul, yes you do ;-)
and also that line (but i like it to a lesser degree) thank you for the love and the joy you bring ... in straight and to the point recognition of the joy that sometimes people bring to you even if they don't really mean to do it anyway (hahaha!). but not to say they're the only joy there is! oh puh-leeeze (hahaha as if i don't also contradict myself on this).

:-D it's 330 time to sit at table!

Pumps

it's all my fault for spending Sunday in pajamas, leafing leisurely thru a magazine and glancing at the ever-present tv. the magazine was full of pointy pumps in all colors and in all kinds of heels :-P

what cruel god made so many kinds of shoes for me to wear? i can't get pumps out of my mind noooow. i want them. i lust for pumps (lol, having passed thru my lust for slides, boots, strappies and thongs before this).

i am a very real example of how those damn glossies work!

Mooning over Milan

(in the top ten list of leigh cheri's things to do the minute she gets back in Manila. my apologies for this advance review but i can't help it :-D... pa-victim)

1. i love claudine barretto's character. she starts out as some kind of tight-ass bitch but soon reveals just how much she mothers everyone anyway :-D

i definitely like how they have captured the pinay's classic definition of loving (a product of socialization, Catholicism and probably all the laundry soap ads from when television first arrived in the Philippines) thru her character: i love you and will do everything in my powers (i kid you not) to make you happy. ... Needless to say at the end of it, it's ooops i forgot to love myself (wail).

2. i love the clothes of the claudine character :-D. Really, gorgeous (hehehe a product of socialization in the capitalist patriarchal universe -- consumerism and the illusion of identity thru fasion!)

3. i love that no one character in the entire movie is perfect. everyone has some growing up to do. (althought that way it was some kind of long movie what with waiting for everyone to grow up! hehe).

4. i love how they brought out and portrayed one of those Pinoy open secrets -- the extra relationships in strange lands, the illicit love that actually ensures OFW's very survival. What to do? All of this love is real.

5. And it was the first time i learned about climbing mountains with one's luggage, avoiding dogs and the police to sneak into Italy. Oh totally pakshit reality.

yes sweetie

yes joanna that's actually my emote of the months. i agree with you completely that life is short and fleeting :D ... and so i think love is great when it's there and must be danced with, sung to, dunked in water, and eaten for supper... hahahaha... but only if there's really love, one must not mistake it ;-) ... basta ah, life is short and love is freeeeee :-D ... if it's the one that you want anyway :-)

but i don't know about those life-long, 5 year and 6 months lists. they have the potential to send me into a panic wondering what do i really want and do i really want what i think i want :-D isn't it true that sometimes we just stumble upon the things that we really do want after all... or need to learn :-P ... and i'd like to leave some room for surprises :-D

but on the point that if you knew you'll die tomorrow, your priorities will become quite clear, there is no doubt :-D ...it might mean me getting very fat since it will become quite clear what i want to eat from that second forward hehe. just offhand, it could also mean getting highlights and swimming everyday (therefore ruining highlights) and writing everyone love letters and just hanging out, hanging about, hanging.... from a tree, skipping thru the clouds hahaha.

basta ah :D... am still currently intent on my wish and will to imbibe the good parts of gemini. must evolve, time is short :-)

my friend kevyn

whom i became friends with only AFTER she had a concert in Manila (how stupid of me :-D), croons on this freeeee thursday, "hold me till morning, soothe me in silence, promise the music won't fade, let me adore you, give you new reason to play, a serenade, heal me with your laughter, let the celebration never find an end, my heart is with you, forever lover and friend.

:-D COOL.

Now back to my transcription and translation of child laborers in Negros. Waaaaaah, heartbreaking real life.

You know when...

You know when you're in the middle of composing a text message for someone, and then you receive a message (beep), do you?
a. finish your message, send it and then read your newly arrived message?
b. exit compose message quickly and then read your message?

:-P :-D :-P :-D mind-curdling

Resistance is futile :-D

Today's favorite text greetings
the dark lord: It is a day for all our loves and not just our lovers. Happy Valentine's Day.
the amazing gemini: Some day we will able to love on our own terms :-) :-) Happy valentine's day!

Poems read at the dreaded poets society's Feb 13 open mic:


Cake

i wanted one life
you wanted another
we couldn't have our cake
so we ate eachother.

-roger mcgough


two cures for love

1. Don't see him. Don't phone or write a letter.
2. The easy way: get to know him better.

-Wendy Cope


The minute I heard my first love story

The minute I heard my first love story
I started looking for you not knowing
how blind that was.

Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along.

Rumi, translated by Coleman Barks with John Moyne

All from A Survival Kit for Modern Life, 101 Poems edited by Daisy Goodwin

In the grip of being a girl

Right. This is the cycle. I think of something that tickles my taste buds. I go and eat it. I feel full and sleepy. Then I think of new things to eat. It IS a vicious cycle and a violent world. Sometimes I think I can scarf down horse and barn. Or to be more specific and polite - Mars Bar, vanilla sundae, Argentina corned beef, rice, sawsawan ;-). It's totally disgusting when you realize that am still full from lunch. But I want to eaaaaat. Aha, tuna sashimi.

Day three. Prior to. Period.