that makes two of us

sabi niya: i love you very much.

WELGA ng Women

And so, we're off!

I mean WE'RE ON!

Salamat sa Priestess sa pagsusulat.

in the country of separate nows

how a moment of good cheer
metamorphosed into tears
in the space of a second
the space of an email
opening.

i am in the country of separate nows.

that's how it is.

i type and wail in YM emoticons.

ignoring my colleague at the back, chattering chattering chattering

(GRIN: i like you promise but i want to cry now.
you're not in my now, you sitting at the back of me.
but thank you for working with such delight.)

i am in the country of separate nows.
i am in the country of separate nows.
i am in the country of separate nows.

now.

A'IGHT!!!!!!!

:P :D :) MWAHAHAHAHAHA

just rambling (sheeshkebab2)

nerviyus.

every time i think about how tomorrow is Sunday, and that means there will only be two days left between tomorrow, and Wednesday, I get nerviyus indeed.

clearly, i am tempted to panic.

i must remember to do one thing at a time, even as we will try to anticipate. sorry, when you're organizing a big event, anticipating is what needs to be done.

all my days are spoken for, until May 16. ggggrrrrr. (this is my particular drama this summer. hehehehe.) spoken for. oh well, at the very least i already know what i ought to be doing from tonight until next next Monday.

count my blessings! :D count my blessings i command me!
1. HB is a sweetheart! HB is goddess-sent! HB holds up 3/4 of the sky. i do 6/8 of the 1/4 and about 2/3 of the sky in the other galaxy.
2. co-cap-co-league is sweet.
3. this is actually a GREAT project if a highly stressful one.
4. many of the participants are really HELPFUL.
5. i got good grades last sem (methinks they could have been better)
6. honey with the 3 o'clock habit
7. one million other blessings. hehehe. (including the fact that cable wasn't cut contrary to the best educated guess)

lalalala

anyway, roomie and i are throwing a huge party when we graduate in 2008, cross your fingers and legs. hahaha! she insists i'll catch up with her. you're all invited :D

lalalala

my drama next semester is going to be swimming in theories :D. i'm sure i'll panic at some points. am sure i'll be very interested but think if only it weren't too much. am sure some of y'all gonna ride some of these theory waves with me. (thank you in advance. one never learns that one only learns by one's self. others will also learn, whether they like it or not for (wo)man never lives by bread alone, but with wheat bread and peanut butter too).

i'll be enrolling in cognitive psychology, advance personality, family relations psychology, and abnormal psychology. wahahahahahaha! golly gee. i'll be a nut case. hopefully a learned nut case.

lalalala

my next feel good thing to do is change the sheets :D

futureminder quote

What I search for, I find. What we neglect escapes us.
Sophocles

Such is our responsibility. :)

sheeshkebab1

Nicely put.
Here is your single's love horoscope for Friday, April 22:

Start a new project today. Like finding the love of your life. Or
finding the life you love -- which can, they say, create the necessary conditions for the love of your life to appear.

lalala

It's not funny. But I won't dwell on it.
TOO MUCH WORK SPOILS THE ENJOYMENT OF THE WORK.

lalala

imagine. pumapangit na ako!!!!!! (kahit cute ang orange jogging pants... as in everybody wants a piece of my pants ;).

Not Good. Sometimes, beauty is everything. :P

too busy

everytime i pass my living room, and sit on the sofa for but ten minutes,
I MISS IT.

"sa diin? kat ta!"

For my queen ;) You can be the queen in my life, if I can be the king in yours.

Well I'll follow you wherever
When you lead me by my nose
On another big adventure- I suppose
Then you lay me down in clover
With their petals on my back
I should make some time
To do more things like that...

Won't you sing to me your poetry,
Won't you take me to your home,
Won't you be for me forever
So I'll never be alone
And just one thing...
If you're my queen...
Then it's a beautiful thing...

chaka khan

ka-OA-han
tak-an
vornot
ggggrrrr.

OC-ness should have its limits when it's getting in the way of moving forward to no dire consequence except being too particular!

there are consequences to forever corrections, and saying no at some point also means being responsible.

fax it.

moans

Hahaha. I mean, love sound bites. I mean sound bytes on love. Moans sounds so much more interesting though. :P

Thank you for being the kind of person who’s not looking for perfection but revels and recognizes the humanity in each person, and knows how to love that humanity.

Thank you for loving perfectly imperfect me, and same to you. :P

I didn’t know it could be that simple. Aside from being complicated, it is also that simple!

**

At odd bitter moments, a gf or two and I would talk about how we have trained some men so well. For other women. You know when a guy has learned so much from you, has become a better person, … and then someone else benefits.

GRIN. I did say, odd bitter moments.

Right now, I can only but be grateful to all those wonderful women who have contributed so much to the person that you are.

So it becomes all right to have loved and lost, and be loving again. Because the circle is so much bigger and broader than any connections I, or any individual, may ever have created. The loving goes on.

**

Girl, I need you to support me on this because I love you and sometimes we need things of the people we love. Support me on this? Know what’s being supportive or not? :) It is always “in the spirit in which something is said or done,” conscious or not (blame Freud). After all, we have had so many rich and rowdy years of supporting each other, this shouldn’t be anything different.

More of the same.

Love.

**

I also want to talk about me loving myself. Allowing my self my mishaps, misapprehensions, amusements, questions, nervous laughter, concrete fears, etc etc etc. That’s all ok. That’s part of me learning and loving, and nothing I say or share can and should be used against me. :P

Take it seriously, with a grain of salt and a lot of love.

**

At ok din kaya, kung iparamdam mo rin sa mga mahal ko, kung kinakailangan, na mahal mo ako? :P

**

Girlfriend love: i love i love i love getting back together with two other best friends this week :).

Funny in one conversation when we said how I seem to have higher expectations of girlfriends. Hahaha. Girl friends matter promise.

parteh of three

we have a new colleague at work, and our partnership of two has grown to a party of three (barring the presence of bosses, themselves a non-party of three hehehe). now this has actually not provoked any big thoughts and emotions from me (yet), but is presently significant in that we have only two desktops in our little room.

so as not to confuse you any further or lead you on in a merry way as to the importance of this post in your now (:P), i only mean to say that using my laftaf on another desk has changed the world for the better. i have opted to use this "boylet" (must think of a name, boylet comes up as a close synonym to toy :P) not only out of need but also because the office has gone wireless.

anyway. i am greatly pleased with where i am currently sitting, and typing. it shakes up the molecules around me a bit.

(i have taken down my clothesline of lists from next week but have started doing this week's "laundry." right now, there's four big to-do's).

thank goddess for lab ;P

between asterisks

You inspire me. I like that in a guy.

I like that in a person. But rarely do I get inspired. And rarely by a guy.

Person.

:)


***

I should allow myself to be more inspired more often.

:)

***

Sometimes we have to choose. This person-friend or that person-friend. When interests clash, when there is love and affection all around, but you can't be everywhere, for everyone at once. Choosing is sometimes more loving.

Perhaps, next time.

***

We have to respect the goodbye moment.
Grab it, give in to it, be in it. Fully.
Goodbye.

***

Spent the day in great company. Sinamahan ako ni M/ sinamahan ko si M.

***

Disrespected my throat yesterday. Now I'm sick. My tonsils are inflamed. I hope this doesn't escalate into a full-blown sick weekend.

***

Don't rain on my parade :)

***

My love is happy. And so am I :)

***

Kanina, I was beaming. Iba pala when you're beaming. I was happy, and I was beaming, and I thought to myself I should beam more often.

:D

planned procrastination

means having my way with myself? ;)

means taking your pleasure when you can?

means taking the time for yourself? with your loved ones? and your friends?

an hour or two or three away from work CAN change the world for the better promise :D

like a hot shower can. or licking an ice cream cone. or a massage.

but what i only meant to post was.

i asked gf, what time she wanted to flee the office so i can plan my procrastination accordingly.

don't feel like walking home alone.

but sometimes, your imagination can take you lotsa places.

Plan B. Or Plan A. ;)

Interesting

Interesting
Originally uploaded by Pansy.

Lesbianism as the answer to competition between women.

Hihihihihi. Hahahahaha. Hehehehe.

Best friends ah.

:P

ganito lang yan

NAMASTE :)

"hugot from the heart" kung si gf pa. hehehe.

bongga ang april 12, 3 na ang major learnings ko from when i woke up at 7 am. hehehe.

monkey see, monkey do

Sometimes it really is as easy as all that.

When you come face to face with your true intentions, when you recognize your heart's desire. It's there. That's it.

Snap of the finger, blink of an eye.

When I said, I wanted to actualize myself :D
When I said, I wanted to love more :D
When I said, I wanted to do this instead of that :D

Blink. He's there. He's all that. And I am learning a lot. And he's not doing anything new. Just being himself. And I am learning all that I can. And in a sense, it's got "nothing" to do with him. Because it's about me.

But then. We, all of us, are one.

So he's also probably learning too. And am just being myself.

And everyone else in the area (this is a wireless thing that needs no setting up) is learning too. And all of us are learning from each other, and making waves of love.

And that's the sort of thing that can stop earthquakes. Monkeys :D

:)

Let us read and dance, and so we will not hurt the rest of the world!-Voltaire

Finding the time to enjoy yourself in the company of others soothes a troubled mind. Play makes work fun. Cheerful thoughts infuse the day, and a gesture of appreciation goes a long way. What you say, people like to hear. Because you see how the pieces fit, you recognize and can create harmony. Being childlike or with children should bring a smile. Whatever the activity-discover the joy.

na ewan.

Masaya kasi magtrabaho kapag maraming kasama. Lalo na kapag mabigat ang trabaho, gumagaan kapag mayroon kang kasama nag-poproblema.

Tingin ko kaaway ko talaga ang magtrabaho mag-isa sa mga bagay na mabibigat.

Tingin ko blessing talaga noong nakatrabaho ko na si HB sa gender-gender and women-women.

Nalulungkot din ako kapag may pinapagawa na mabigat tapos di ka man lang ma-ayudahan ng boss mo sa sobrang busy niya na. :( Para kang naiwanan na ewan.

these crazy days

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

lol

the best day of my life today ;))

Clothesline of lists and a paper quilt be mine today.

motto

Kahit anong mangyari, sa susunod na dalawang araw, HINDI AKO MATITINAG.

Ha!

Hehehe. I have work galore rising around me. And I sit here, amused at it all. I had the feeling this is the summer I'm going to need to pretend (read: internalize) that I am really a workaholic :P.

A workaholic in love. I double dare you V!

I am SUPER

Here is your love horoscope for Thursday, April 7:

Your sweetie's calling out to you, but so is the office. The daily
juggle can be disheartening, but don't try to be a superhero. Prioritize so
there's more time to play with your partner.

;))


P.S. THANK YOU. :) Sweetness abounds. If I had a transmogrifying machine .... calling Calvin and Hobbes ;) pa-borrow.

as tuesday turns

Funny how a day unfolds.

You never changed clothes.
You never even left your building.

But your cells have grown (:P pancit canton)
Your internal rivers rose and changed directions

Several times, new seas came up
And so did new moons :D

At my planet:
I would like to say thank you DD for bearing with me agonizing about my pet peeves (hehe) and smiling thru my mood swings (I was sad and I felt better).
I would like to say B, I'm sorry for raining on your sunny day, and now I know better than to muscle in on your romance ;). After all, I already said my piece (hehehe! pakialamera).
I would like to say thank you universe for providing the chance for me to verbalize.
I would like to say thank you universe for Maya who REALLY by her presence helps me say the things that are difficult to say (chicken chicken chicken chicken hahaha) but need to be said.
I would like to say thank you friend S for being you, who understood every word I said, and everything I meant. Ang ganda mo mare, grabe.


Goddesses on YM
me: mabango

an hour later...
me: mabango
j: naka-tube

two hours later...
me: mabango
j: naka-tube
m: naka halter

three hours later...
m: naka-halter, backless at mas mabango

3 hours and fifteen minutes...
me: non-competitive mabango

3 hours and twenty minutes...
m: naka-halter, backless at mas mabango, walang biro
me: non-competitive mabango, red shorts and white sando

3 hours and thirty minutes...
j: naka-tube kaya lalong inubo
c: i give in to the "war": cover girl in baby blue spaghetti

Let's not get started on the pancit. :P

TODAY's Cover Girl

No offense to the Pope, the Goddess rest his soul :). But the Priestess bumped him off the cover page of today's Manila Standard.

'Coz she DON'T OWE, WON'T PAY! It's not about her debts :D though that pic may send her creditors quaking (like Ara at the carinderia down the road). It's just that, if you care to look at the fine print, there are a million reasons why we should push for DEBT CANCELLATION of South countries, particularly countries in crisis like the Philippines, and countries devastated by the tsunami. If you have ever caught yourself wondering what can be done NOW, to provide relief and results NOW, then click up there and read on.

And then again, Priestess, where and how else should you be cover girl, but as your guapa self, proclaiming to the world, just what it is you believe in (with matching lumaw lumaw/ teary eyes)?

P.S. Frame it for the benefit of those differently sun-signed children and apos ;)

i can't keep quiet any longer

damn but i smell SO GOOD! :D

and look so fresh :D

i keep sniffing my arms :D

(Body Shop's body scrub and body butter in Olive. Hmmmmmmm.)

finger to lips

and with a great WHOOOOOOOOOSH,

(plus the silent flapping of invisible feathers)

i disappear into my quietness.

;)

(I love, and i must sit with myself. I love big big big.)

not my song

Sad To Belong
( England Dan and John Ford Coley )

I met you on a springtime day,
You were minding your life and I was minding mine too.
Lady, when you looked my way,
I had a strange sensation and Darling, that's when I knew...

That it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.

Oh, I wake up in the night,
And I reach beside me hoping you would be there.
But instead I find someone,
Who believed in me when I said I'd always care...


So sue me. I just feel sad that's all, and this seemed, sadly, appropriately sad. Even if it's really not my song. Hehehe. Feelings are strange like that.

I have just arrived back home after wending my way down mountains. Maybe that's reason enough to be sad, if sadness needs to have a reason.

Maybe I am happy enough to allow myself to be sad :).

Before I wound my way down the mountain, in a darkened bus, staring at the lights splattered on the hillsides (on the mountains there can be hills :D), with my seatmate crying into her hanky, I prayed a thank you for when life sends you people who see you, dimunitive dot that you are (dimunitive dot to dimunitive dot? :D not always. "dimunitive dot" sounds so "slight pang"), who will love you, and who will try not to hurt you. i think the trying part makes all the difference, even if they won't always succeed.

nor will you.

driving

We got in the cab on EDSA outside Shangri-la Mall past midnight that Friday. Surprisingly traffic was heavy and soon after we passed Robinson’s Galleria, the driver grunted that we should go to Sikatuna via White Plains. I thought about the possible wide empty stretches of road on White Plains, about how the EDSA route was much nearer, and commented that, maybe taking White Plains would be too far. The driver relented but soon as we got much nearer the turn that would take him to White Plains, he asked again, and I said forcefully willfully that we should just continue on.

In response, he revved up the engine, and accelerated the cab, losing his temper in the middle of traffic, in fact in the middle of two big trucks on either side. Ajo and I noted his anger without comment continuing to sit in silence as he drove in starts and spurts taking chances by changing lanes too quickly.

How was he to know I find comfort in being snug in the middle of traffic, intimidated by freeways where cars whiz past and testosterone is given free rein (I don’t believe in giving testosterone free rein). I get overwhelmed by empty highways and the thought of speed-high maniacs going blind getting high or losing one’s brakes at 100 kph.

Or even that my curiosity had been piqued by the uncharacteristically heavy traffic and I wanted us to inch forward just to find out what the buildup was all about? I was in no big hurry and would have been happy to know.

He continued on in a tantrum and I guessed that he would take the next best turn, taking a right just before Cubao, popping up at Aurora and going up Anonas. He did as I thought he would and we let him as he wanted.

He lost his temper and took our lives into his hands but it didn’t matter because he had his radio on the station playing jazz oldies in the middle of the night. His saving grace Diana Krall crooning, “I’ve got you under my skin.”

When the gate had closed behind us, I said to Ajo, the driver lost his temper. She complained, it’s ok to get mad but he shouldn’t get us killed because of it.

“But each time I do, just the thought of you, Makes me stop before I begin, Coz, I’ve got you under my skin.”