Haha. My fear of flight doesn't know what to do with the news below.

Woman says ‘I do’ after crash proposal

Associated Press
Last updated 03:54pm (Mla time) 07/23/2006


ROME, Ga. - A plane that was chartered to help a man propose to his girlfriend crashed, injuring the couple and the pilot, authorities said.

Relatives holding a sheet with "Erica, will you marry me?" painted on it watched from the ground as the Cessna 127, circling low over the airport, stalled and then crashed into the ground Friday evening.

The couple, Adam Sutton and Erica Brussee, and the pilot were taken to a hospital with injuries that did not appear to be life threatening, authorities said.

Brussee suffered a broken leg, and the other two had cuts and gashes.

As Brussee was loaded into the ambulance, she said "Tell Adam I said yes," said Joshua Willis, Sutton's cousin. The ring was lost in the wreckage, he said.

The National Transportation Safety Board is investigating the incident.

you know it's a "bad" week when you opened your apple juice, and discovered it was tomato.... euck! bleah.

maybe in January, I'll feel better.

Many thanks to sister Claire for the perfect neckpiece :D.

'Twas magic the way you made it :)))!!!!!

p.s. who would have thought i kept my stud earring in place by sticking the price tag of the small container of safety pins over it. hahaha. soooo elegant.

biblio gaga

isn't it cute when the novels that you read reverberate with your thoughts? ;)

on counseling

"I hesitated. 'I don't think I'm qualified to say, Nick. It must be incredibly painful.' I wondered how long I should pause before saying "but." A few months, possibly.


"I'd realized he wasn't ready to look on the bright side, so I just shut up about it and listened. There was no making it right, so it was selfish of me to try. When he wanted to, he expressed himself beautifully. The words poured out of him."

on intimacy

"I enjoyed those conversations, even though I knew I shouldn't. It was exhilarating, Nick inviting me to share his feelings. He hadn't done it for so long. I'd forgotten how much I'd missed it. I felt privileged, close to him. This was how we should have operated as a couple. Instead, we got lazy, shutting ourselves off. I don't mean to sound pompous, but there can be no intimacy without self-disclosure."

still, Behaving Like Adults by Anna Maxted

these are all the reasons why

i am very angry with you...

because i feel you made me run an obstacle course countless times just to be able to get close to you when after all i was made to believe that we could be close.

because i don't feel you appreciate just how many hurdles and jumps i had to get through just to have those precious moments of togetherness and connection with you.

because i was always available and you weren't.

because you left me in the lurch with no explanations, and though i appreciate that many things in life have no explanations or are very hard to explain, i don't know whether you understand that i deserve so much more than the words and thoughts you have sent my way. you could have tried harder.

because i showered you with my love and affection, and though i have all sorts of shortcomings and pained you in numerous ways, i still feel that you held out against me.

because when all was said and done, in the end, it turned out that you could, after all, show love and appreciation when you wanted. and i waited for it countless times for one and a half years.

because i thought you could be the one, and you weren't. hehehehe.

this is what happens with anger that is expressed. it is halfway to gone.

and i can't be friends with you because it's just going to be more of the same thing, only this time explicitly agreed upon, where you're going to be friends with me, playing footsie with me, and i'm still going to love you anyway.

and i really want to reach that beautiful place, where there is neither "hope" nor "agenda."

for after all, if i lose a love, it should only be fair that you lose a friend.

except that friends aren't really lost.

dammit.

;))

and then there is this blog.

i'll sing na lang, once again, meredith (hahaha):

i'm a bitch i'm a lover
i'm a child i'm a mother
i'm a sinner i'm a saint
i do not feel ashamed.

ala-meredith pala

I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between

my captive counselor

counseling class involves many fun activities designed to turn your life upside down inside out and round and round :D

one of this is getting your very own counselor from the company of classmates. and you, too, serve as another classmate's counselor.

in full amusement

last night i had my very first session with my very own counselor.

we started in the only way trained counselors can start i think, "so how are you? how have you been?"

but, no.

i thought, no need for the niceties, for "playing footsie" till "we make a connection." i have long ago decided that i like her hehehe.

so i plunged right in and went full steam ahead. like a little steamboat that's pushed into the water and immediately chugs at a very fast pace to her destination.

hehehehe!

thanks, angel.

counseling, what?

my classmate asked, so is counseling something like feeling your way around your client?

teacher said, no. it's making a connection.

when you've only been making footsie, rather, simply playing games, the counseling leaves you with an unsatisfied feeling, and you sense the counselee is only being polite to you.

but when you have made a connection, and the counselee is able to unburden what is inside of her, secure that you are able to receive her, the session leaves her feeling lighter.

and you the counselor, because you know what makes you you, and are open to receiving/ knowing what makes another unique, your insides so too moved/ shifted in tune with that of your counselee. but without all of that threatening your sense of who you are, because you are secure in your knowledge of yourself.

a bit like life
so cool, no?

we can also only listen, fully receive/ be open to another (friends, family, loved ones) when we are aware of who we are, and where we are in our "process," so our presence is not threated by another's unique experience of life.

of course we also meet those whose experiences and personas "threaten" us, which then fully alerts us to our own issues within our lives.

the universe is kind that way :)

ala-nis

i'm a bitch i'm a lover
i'm a child i'm a mother
i'm a sinner or a saint

Oh! Photo! All! Bum!

buzz me for your very own link to the

Ay! Picture! Lahat! Puwet!

hehehe.


sa mata ng mga bata: ano ba ini, Lord?



Ay, kiss pala!


SWEEEEET...


RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!! It's the mad bridesmaid!!!

to the wounds! ;)

YES.

I can't wait to upload the pictures either from the deadbatt cam and the fullmemory phone...

but

it'sreallyabusybusyMonday :D

so in the meantime, let's stay with that snippet of song...

Ooo baby do you know what that's worth?
Ooo, heaven is a place on earth.
They say in heaven, love comes first.
We'll make heaven a place on earth.
Ooo, heaven is a place on earth.

To all the boys I loved before (long long ago)

The strange thing, the hardest thing, always was the part where i had to make myself believe that you no longer cared or didn’t or wouldn’t care, even though, actions speak louder than words :P

In my mind and in my heart, you loved me still :D

Perhaps I was/am the stupidest girl alive.

But yOu, even when yOu never came back, I still felt yOu loved me that's why I waited for yOu, fuming. Even though yOu never did. Even though I "knew" yOu’re so full of insecurities yOurself, you couldn't even begin to love yOurself. More so, me. (I have no idea if yOu've changed but I don't care really.)

And even though yoU couldn’t. Couldn’t possibly. I always believed and felt happy that somehow yoU knew me and saw me. That yoU knew I was a person. Even though now yoU swear to the depths of exploding Mt. Mayon and deeper that yoU never did and never will, I still insist that yoU did. Hahahaha. Maybe because I saw yoU and believed yoU were a person yoUrself that it’s such an impossible task to ask me to believe yoU’re an ogre. But yoU insist yoU are one. Hahaha. Fine. YoU're an ogre if that's what makes yoU happy. Actually, I just wanted you to be happy ... ogre.

Hahaha.

Boys, boys, boys. You are strange.

size 36

sabi ko sa kaibigan ko, ang hirap maging unresponsive kasi maliban na sa pagiging polite, ako ay loving :D

pero ang hirap talaga ng kinukumusta na hindi kinakausap. pramis. kasi di mo alam kung do you really want to know, and so can i really say, and if i can really say, then can we talk. kasi that's kumustahan.

kasi, tao po ako, tao. nangangausap at kinakausap. hindi ako poste na walang react. liban na lamang sa pagtayo sa kung saan man nakatayo ang poste.

hihi.

sister, ano ba talaga?!?!!!!! *sabay, sabunot hair*

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

haaay, importante ang hair para sa mga bridesmaid no ;))

sabi ng kaibigan kong mahilig mang-asar, bakit ang taray mo? mataray ka ba dahil bridesmaid ka na naman?

sabi ko, hindi no. happy ako. kapag bridesmaid, may bagong sapatos ;)).

as i was saying

nah, i wasn't saying anything :D


besides, it's raining too hard, too sporadically, and too spontaneously

really, too enthusiastically

to have much room to say anything, to do anything

beyond be amazed by the unbelievable rain.


i am earth,

i like rain.

ayaw

themundaneandthedivine: ang cutie auntie magya para sa log cabin summer camp mo
themundaneandthedivine: (didn't tell her the link i sent was about yoga storytelling for kids)
themoongoddesschronicles: hehehehe....ano yang indigo dreams? sabihin mo na at di ko bet mag-surf ngayon hehehehe
themundaneandthedivine: ;))
themundaneandthedivine: ayoko mag explain kakatamad .... but i love you anyway...
themoongoddesschronicles: hmp
themoongoddesschronicles: ang loving ay may sharing kaya i-share mo kung ano nalalaman mo sa indigo dreams
themundaneandthedivine: hahaha
themundaneandthedivine: i click mo lang tapos pag open ng page, self explanatory
themundaneandthedivine: no more scrolling down
themoongoddesschronicles: ayaw
themundaneandthedivine: hehehehe
themundaneandthedivine: hahaha

backpedaling planet

planet Mercury appears to be moving backward in the sky from Tuesday till almost the end of the month, and that means communication goes haywire :) (do i believe this? yes i do! hehehe).

my favorite carinderia (food delivery too) for one has been throwing in its menu inside my gate early in the am as their landline is out of order.

then as i was texting roommie to please take out the trash as she leaves for the office, i discovered i can't text no more. hihi. my outgoing line has been cut, so if you want me, call me :D. (i mostly have the modem in the daytime only) ... and so i took out the trash myself. as i do. haha :D. oh, i hope to pay later but i can't promise when i'll be back aligned with the cell sites. hehe.

still and all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TITA EDS!!!! You're the cutest Tita Eds in the whole universe, and I won't have you any other way ;)). Have a great day in faraway G.

101 dalmatians

you know when you wake up with just the right amount of sleep?
and you're very calm and still
and centered

and you do things very calmly
with a rested blank mind

it's so zen.

* * *

it's nice, too
after nearly losing it again in class, yesterday
when your classes give you opportunities to be still

you never know what will come up out of the blue
suddenly you're writing entire novels in your head

not fit for print :D

* * *

from Ala about her brother:

... and he knows when to leave me alone, but not in a passive aggressive way. This is a skill that takes most men a lifetime to master -- how to leave women alone. Take note, leaving a woman alone is not the same as walking out on her. The former is done in a spirit of acceptance, whereas the latter is usually done out of spite (read this, boyfriends).

* * *

Unavailable men.

There are those who are married (tee hee).
Those who don't have the space, but sometimes like hanging out at your place.
Or those who have no place to call home including themselves.
There are those who live on planet Pluto.

When I didn't get my degree in women and development,
I got my Phd in unavailable men.

* * *

You know someone once went into my kitchen and then brought me a glass of water.
I was so surprised, I almost fell off the sofa.

That's how bad it can get, your jaws fall off when someone is... well,

nice.

* * *

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eula: (emoticon kiss)
chester: (emoticon smile)
chester: wassup chocolate?
eula: oooh chocolate
eula: i have gotten to that point in my life when chocolate really is the next best thing
chester: hahahaha
chester: i have gotten to that point in my life when i want chocolate to be the next best thing
chester: nope, to be the best thing
eula: in that case, try dairy queen's brownie fudge blizzard

* * *

from Honeymoon by Amy Jenkins

'But -- I don't know,' I [Honey] said, 'I don't know if there's enough passion. I mean, he's so kind and good and wise and decent and hard-working and -- er -- clean and sexually functional and non-smoking, and he talks about his feelings and makes me laugh and I don't mind the way he dresses and he can cook and change the sheets on a bed.'

'Oh, God, surely there must be something wrong with him,' she [Therese] said, crossly.

I thought for a while. 'He supports Aston Villa,' I said.

She smiled at me. There was one of those motherly looks in her eye. 'You know what?' she said. 'Sometimes getting what you want is the hardest thing of all.'

astro dot com

Now get down on your knees and pray to the Goddess that it isn't you I could get annoyed with today. Hahaha.

Sexual energy **
If you suppress your sexuality in platonic relationships at this time, you may become irritable and feisty. This effect may be so subtle that you are not even aware of what is happening at the time. If you cannot fulfill your secret desire to make love to someone, you may become angry and harsh with that person. There is nothing to be done about this except to be aware of it and not take your feelings too seriously. But if there is any possibility of a sexual relationship with the person in question, feel free to initiate it. Persons in creative activities such as arts or crafts can also express the energy of this influence through their work. If you have any ability along these lines you will be able to express yourself through your art more effectively than usual.


The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Mars Opposition Venus
activity period from 4 July 2006 to 7 July 2006.

looks like we made it

sweeties -- bride and on the side :D


cake and emcee


charades


songers and showerers



the woodpeckers' circle ;)


one last lesbian fling, teary-eyed ;)

still the one

Our old friends D and B are getting married.

Us bridesmaids against marriage (in principle... we adore the groom), we scared her witless with veiled mentions about the bridal shower we hosted, something involving tiring super late nights in a row. She said she was more scared of what could happen in the bridal shower than even the organizing nightmare of a wedding.

Oh, it was lovely. In a cozy room filled with old friends (women only, please, and absolutely no strippers), we gathered round the yummy pasta with puttanesca sauce, the laptop and the projector, and the projected image of the bride... hehe!

After chow and a trivia game of many juicy details, we started on the presentation that involved floating pictures from many many years ago and just last month, loads of alcohol and memories, loads of men, and special video clips of interviews with the bride's men. Yes, her men: romantic liaisons, intimate friends, fabricated men, and chasees.

The best bits, in my view, were the chase scenes, where the production crew fell all over themselves chasing men trying to get away from the interview. Hihi! Off they went into the elevator, and down the stairs.

The soundtrack: Wild women do and they don't regret it ... what you only dream about, wild women do! And then too, it's raining men! alleluia! ... it's raining men! Amen!

A highlight too was the ritual based on the one where old lovers return their keys to the bride's place. In our version, with each seashell we placed into a glass filled with cleansing salt water, we uttered our wishes for the bride to be healed of wounds from past experiences with men, for her to be able to continue on the new stage in her journey. And us too.

Much much later, early the next day, the bride sang Shania Twain's Still The One which is this mega annoying song because it's so so so so D and B together, it drives you to rivers of tears...

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong

You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

p.s. come back tomorrow for pics ;)

creepy

every time I ask the angels,
for a message about this one theme,
I get the same card in the same position.

three times have I asked in the last four weeks
and three times have I been given
the same message:

Bridgette ~
CAUTION
Something is being kept from you.
This situation isn't right for you.

This has been the only time in the last six months that I've gotten such consistency.