Shrekkie

Hehehehehehehehehehe. (The sound of a new convert giggling. Sorry, in my usual slowpoke way, I have just realized the error of my movie omissions :D. oh what GREAT FUN. Just like our high school productions.)

Pansy Plan

Aaaaargh, I don't feel good. Am taking to my bed this weekend, hiding under the covers, going on a juice cruise. Must work too though, hehe. Anyway, my pc is within winking distance of the bed.

Soon, it will be June.

Low Batt but Tanned

Am back.

I like these "un-related" phrases. The ones that make you go, "huh?!?" with matching weirded-out expression. I am tired and woozy but I am tanned and pretty. I am the most visibly tanned of them all due to backstroking half the length of Mairaira blue lagoon. Backstroking because it was a far distance to get to the rocks part and that was the farthest I've exerted effort in a long while (hehe!).



Mairaira was lovely, simply gorgeous. It was a placid blue lagoon this time, half-deserted and hence, more beautiful. The water was calm and clear and oh so very blueeee. From up where we were snoozing on life preservers, just resting our heads on the styro, we could see clearly to the sandy ground about 10 feet below our raisin feet.



We hung out.
Swam about.
Jumped around.
Drank some sun.
Loved the clouds.

And corrected the spelling. It's Ma-i-ra-i-ra with two I's.

I stand, tanned and edited. :D

weather report

The weather continues to cooperate. It shines when were walking, rains when we're in the van, sprinkles when we're swimming, shines when it's time to take pictures. It pours when we're taking showers and eating dinner. We ought to always trust in the weather ;-)

Pagudpod, take three

Peace, love, eternity within. Laughter, the healing powers of water at sunset. Calmer waves, lovely lovely room with bathtub, AND GLOBE SIGNAL. hehehe. Hhhhhhmmmmm. Humming happiness.

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whos afraid of the guardia sibil?

To my endless amusement, it looks like we have
stumbled into the set of Jose Rizal's Noli or Fili, our
much studied texts on Spanish colonization back in
high school. We drove into Vigan at 5 am and are now
parked by one of the cobbled streets of old Spanish
houses. We are waiting to be apprehended by the
guardia sibil for being in Vigan too early. Or perhaps
we could catch a glimse of Maria Clara on her way to
Mass. ... now back to my forty winks ;)

North expressway

From my perch by the window, I can see the crescent
moon. I am happy. And excited. I love being on my way
to somewhere. And get this, the highways are DRY!
Hehehe! It is evidence that tomorrow the sun will be
shining. :D. ... I see strange sites by the roadside.
One looks like a grounded UFO. Another seems like the
construction of a UFO airport. Hehe... Food report:
Started on the curly tops, one packet of cream O's, S's
graham crackers. Now searching high and low for M's
boiled peanuts. Hehe.

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*Life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey*

-At the beginning from Anastasia the movie

celestial approval

"A few days of rest and relaxation will rejuvenate you. Perhaps you should take a short jaunt out of town..."

Packing light

Into my backpack...
1. A child's faith that tomorrow, the sun will shine.
2. chocolate cream o's and curly tops.
3. The Many Lives and Sorrows of Josephine B.
4. Thoughts of you ;)

P.S. Welcome back Maha Maya, Nemo and Lovey (hehe!); Happy Birthday Antonette :D

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Rain makes me feel

COOL. :-D

I also like rain although I adore summer. I like rain when it comes after a long steaming summer. The sudden change is refreshing.

Rain and sun signs:

A Capricorn friend told me she likes the rain. She likes being cozy inside the house with family, doing fun and cozy things. I feel the same way (I like being tucked in but still "in touch" with the sound of the rain falling, preferably thru large clear windows.)

Rain makes my Libra friends (two of them anyway) feel blue.

NGUY NGUY

A minute of silence please in memory of Hector, the only real man in Troy and Sparta.

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Up on the roof

How fascinating. Rain and clouds from up on the 41st
floor. I want to tune out of the meeting (in which
there is a bully girl that i want to declare my rights
to as an independent individual hehehe), sit on the
carpet, and stare out the glass walls. A pansy far
from the fields :D

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*Life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey*

-At the beginning from Anastasia the movie

They tuck me in each night

And give me nightmares! Hehehe! On my bedside, literally the side of my bed :-D, is a pile of books (what else). I have started all of them, hehehe! (Oh dear!)

I wanted to share the list with you because I love that each book (except for the last one which is a compilation) is about a woman persona, a CHARACTER living in her own peculiar time.



The Moon Under Her Feet
By Clysta Kinstler
Bought by myself for my Aries goddess gf. (though I haven't given it up yet! :-P)
This is a narrative weaving the biblical account of Mary and Jesus, the Egyptian myth of Isis and Osiris, and the Sumerian story of Inanna and Dumuzi to create an exotic tale of a strong, sensual woman.


The All-True Travels and Adventures of Lidie Newton
by Jane Smiley
Bought by mysef. Jane Smiley is a personal favorite.
Publisher's Weekly says
An immensely appealing heroine, a historical setting conveyed with impressive fidelity and a charming and poignant love story make Smiley's new novel a sure candidate for bestseller longevity. Lidie Harkness, a spinster at 20, is an anomaly in 1850s Illinois. She has an independent mind, a sharp tongue and a backbone; she prefers to swim, shoot, ride and fish rather than spend a minute over the stove or with a darning needle.



The Many Lives and Secret Sorrows of Josephine B
By Sandra Gulland
Lent by gf C. Josephine B, ;-)
The Barnes & Noble Review
The Josephine B. of the title is the woman who became Josephine Bonaparte. Framed in diary form, this historical novel catapults through the parallel worlds of French poverty and Parisian splendor melting towards the bloody revolution. A prophecy seen strewn among tarot cards gradually begins to materialize.



The Bitch in the House
Edited by Cathi Hanauer
Recommended by Cancer gf to Cancer gf, and bought for me by mumsicle
In 1931, Virginia Woolf wrote "Killing The Angel in the House," a stunning attack on the Victorian ideal of the constantly dutiful, perpetually self-sacrificing wife. In The Bitch in the House, Cathi Hanauer takes Woolf's act of demolition a step further, offering a podium to more than two dozen independent-minded women, who write about frustration and anger in their everyday lives. Touching on issues ranging from obesity to the overrated joys of motherhood, the contributors retain their articulateness without losing their rage.

I wanna be with you

...To be the one who's in your arms, who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way

Self-pollination

Hahaha! I've not been doing this theme on purpose, but what else can I conclude from today's horoscope? :-P

Capricorn

Love, children, and creativity will play important roles in your life for the next two weeks. If you've been talking about having a baby, this is an ideal period to conceive. In the event you're a swinging single, you could join forces with a cuddly playmate. Of course, you may opt to retreat to your own private corner and work on an art project of some kind. Whatever your pleasure, it's sure to satisfy.

***

Venus in house position 9. Love and travel are linked now. Perhaps water will separate you from an amour, you'll live with your sweetheart away from your native land or you'll fall for someone from abroad? Cosmopolitan contacts will bring riches and love into your life.

crushed on

My working list of females I have crushed on:
(list thought of while listening to Aiza Seguerra's version of Power of Two)

1. boyish and 'buot'-looking, this Japanese woman in one Asian conference almost a decade ago
2. Aiza Seguerra (hahahaha)
3. (secret :-P)
4. oh "of course", our goddess of darkness :D

more later

5. Julia Stiles!!!!! I definitely have a crush on Julia Stiles!

some more later

hehehehe! am i trying to prove something to myself here?

Shoeholic sisterrrrr

Got this on the email. My Scorpio sister taking a snap of her comfy shoes while waiting for the bus. Hehehe!

Three snaps of Baguio

It's cold in Baguio at night time. The view from SM! Hehehe!


Documentor's bedroom. Matching the walls ;-)


The promising gender-sensitive young men of the group Jacinto!

ahem

i miss you! ;-)

 

(testing mail to blogger ah)

good vibes hehehe!

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Pansy under an umbrella

The pansy wants to make pabukot under a huge yellow dotted payong muna and not talk much. You can make kalabit of course! Pansies like being connected even if they're hiding out under an umbrella. Just as long as you don't want to make me come out and show my face, you can hold my hand, :-D (now you know how my sociable roomie feels when she wants to talk and i just want to be mum hehe! i love you roomie, we are one in rental, if not in communication. but that's ok ;-))

Having said that about wanting to be alone, how to say this -- to take me seriously but please don't take me seriously :D hehehe!

Ahh, so much to write up to share ...
1. the summer camp for young men on gender issues and baguio :-)
2. my crystal ball reading!!!
3. my replies to cancer dude on some women points we were once chatting about
4. the trip to pagudpod that seems like eons ago but that i still want to write up. hehe.

the "reality show" is off the air :D :-P ohmmmm.....

p.s. new template though ;-) gfs, do you like it???

p.s. and the last two lines are what i mean exactly by don't take me seriously at all but take me seriously :-D :-) ... oh mwah to you!

A Pansy Votes

I was a pansy.

From an article in the Seattle Times entitled Suitably Sultry "...reveals what Georgia O'Keefe's paintings glorified — that flowers are a plant's reproductive parts. The discreetly ruffled petals of pansies or roses lull the nonbotanists among us into forgetting the sexual potency of flowers."

I had a past life reading last Friday, and according to the reader, I was a pansy. Which struck an immediate chord because a viola is a type of pansy. (A viola is also a type of violin, and a lead character in a play by Shakespeare.)

I was asked by the reader how I felt as a pansy. I answered solitary, prominent, etc. And she asked, "Isn't a pansy bursting with sexuality?" And a pansy is a flower near the ground. A grounded flower bursting with sexuality. A CAPRICORN. :-P

Here are some pictures of pansies, and a viola too, to entertain you while I write up the transcript of my reading.

Bless.



a painting by Georgia O'Keefe (black pansy)


a painting by Dorothy Pyle


VIOLAs!!!!!

P.S. the yellow pansy up on this page is by Annie LaPoint

Fall from Grace

Tuesday this week was welcomed with both excitement and trepidation as my weekly horoscope had this to say -- Tuesday could be the most interesting day this week, as you might need to rise to a challenge, while still retaining your dignity. The question of dignity isn't usually a problem, as you naturally bear yourself with grandeur. But as there is going to be a Full Moon in Scorpio at this time, you might find that despite your best intentions, one social outing could prove too much, and you might end up disgracing yourself in one way or another before the night is over.

While I was interested to find out how things could get interesting (and they did too, a bit starting with a dead cat on my doorstep, but this is a story at another blog :D), I was also fearful of how I would disgrace myself. Would I be running around the campus streets naked? Would I fall into an emotional pool, and spend the night crying into my friend's shoulders?

Aquarius herself was a tad fearful -- if Cappie broke down, what was she to do? (hehehehe! Maybe she was visualizing having to carry me over her shoulders bawling! :-P). On the other hand, Pisces gf clapped her hands in glee, and soon was lost in happy remembrances of her various disgraceful encounters many of which involved moonlight, stars, sand, water, and males (hehe!).

Sad to say, there were no scandalous encounters beyond me persisting in singing reggae (wanna make you sweat, sweat till you can't sweat no more) and being politely ignored.

However, Wednesday this week, there was a "fall from grace" as Cancer gf confirmed that I am no longer the one she looks up to! No longer the one she solely admires because since my days as her heroine, many wonderful people have come into her life. She has also come to appreciate and celebrate the goddess within her. I've become simply normal, just another friend in a huge web of wonderful friends. And am so relieved. Hehehe! I didn't think getting disgraced would feel this good ;-).

As I did write in this blog a few weeks back -- ... I think when some friends have to describe me, it comes out as if I'm dead already. Hey! I'm as petty as petty can be, just a hot and bothered molecule in the middle of matiaga. If you pinch me, I'll bite you. Please don't put me a step higher coz that means you won't bother with me and anyway am too lazy to stand still. I'd rather be sitting on the step eating crunchy green mangga. And I don't like being a step lower either although that's often where I place myself. Because belly to belly is best :D. ... I don't want to be an oracle, no one wants to go to bed with the oracle, who could sleep????.

'Nuff said. Am sure, Libra gf can relate. :D I've long become normal to her goddess self too! Hehe!

Girl Goat

One of my pastimes is observing myself from an amused distance (because as that Charlotte Kasl author of If The Buddha Dated keeps saying in that book, we must treat ourselves with compassion, humor, and tenderness ;-)).

One, I always seem to end up asking after people's work. Am not even very conscious about it but it's true, much to the chagrin of Aquarius gf (hehehe! there's a story in here but let her tell it herself :-) ) and our combined amusement at each other. Maybe because work is part of personhood, particularly from the perspective of a mountain-climbing goat. Maybe because it's one of those shortcuts to getting to know people. If what they do means a lot to them or is part of their person, then it certainly is a clue :D. But don't worry about it, I don't think I box people according to what they do or their day jobs. It's just that I'll tend to ask :D.

Two is that I do tend to be quite reserved with people from the start, unconsciously wanting to wait and see muna. There's a good part to it, in that offhand, it seems like the "sensible" (lol) thing to do. ... Wait till you know more or are sure :D.

On the other hand, I'm also grateful to the people who leaped into the void, and "picked" me -- my silent smiling reserved self -- and chose to befriend me (off the top of my head, Taurus gf, Libra gf, Pisces gf and many more am sure, and a cute story to every encounter as well) and saved us a lot of time. Also those people who seem to have a thing for seeing the soft side of goats like Aries gf and Aquarius gf. I think also that Cancer gfs and I will tend to grow on each other -- it takes some time before we do trust each other with our selves or discover each other completely.

I find this trait funny when I remember passages on Capricorn in the one hundred and one astrology books we've browsed so far that says that courting a Cap is like going to a job interview! Hehehe! But I think this is less the "problem" of the "job applicant" that that of the shy and fearful-of-ridicule Cap. I think people just need to be themselves anyway, and Cap will be Cap until ...

They finally pick you ;-). I've also noticed that when I've finally picked the people who might or might not have picked me already, that I tend to be quite true (GRIN, this is not an ad, promise). I tend to be quite true to the spirit that is you, and will be quite ready to defend you to the death (naks, I did a quick mental survey of my dearest and closest and think that I've somehow "defended" each one at some point or the other, which is not to say that they have not done the same for me :-) ).

And last, I've observed that I'm hyper-observant! :D I can usually guess or sense where people are at, and often have a broad understanding of people's processes and persons.

But the challenge usually is, to connect knowledge with kindness and compassion. For of what use is it for me to know if I don't care? It's the caring that counts, and I thank you all who have brought and continue to bring me that lesson.

:D

P.S. Thank you's are in order to Aries gf who bought me that book a year ago, and to Libra gf who is currently reading it and enthusing about it, and thus inspiring me to go back to it. That book is just multiple O's. Hehehe.

Buddha blessed moon

Major solar and planetary alignments take the day off just before we reach one of the main Full Moons of the year -- what's called the Buddha Festival or Wesak -- scheduled for tomorrow afternoon. Thus, even though there is a cosmic lull of sorts, intensity is still building hour after hour. Creative, artistic juices are flowing in the morning -- thanks to the Moon in Libra trining Venus in Gemini (1:06AM PDT) and Mars in Gemini (9:50AM PDT). This latter time begins a void lunar cycle lasting until 1:40PM PDT when the Moon dives into the passionate pools of Scorpio Moon. The sleuth within takes over once the Scorpio Moon begins in earnest. Ferret out secrets relating to your family tree or learn more about ancient places of magic and mystery. Research, library work, psychological studies and investigations of almost any kind make sense right now. The evening builds to a Moon-Uranus trine in water signs (11:51PM PDT). Let your intuition guide your intellect, logic and commonsense.

from Yahoo astrology (hehe!)

Distress is a clue...

to the wonder that is you :D.

Dear gfs or others in distress,

** DISCLAIMER FIRST: Not thinking of anyone in particular, just a thought I want to put out here and anyone may use it if it's useful, claim it and propagate it :-D

I find that it always helps me to recognize my distresses, to put my finger on them and allow myself those feelings. ... But not to stop there. To start meditating (thinking, reflecting, praying, dreaming) on where these feelings are coming from. Why is a good question that need not be feared. And often it takes a lot of why's to uncover the complex landscape within.... Why am I feeling this way? If so, then why? And then, why? Why is a journey to more of yourself, and a journey that you fully deserve (because it is a good journey to make :D).

It also signifies that you're not giving away responsibility for your happiness to others around you. YOU are what makes you happy. Others can't make you happy. You can :D. I bet others also have their hands full with their own journeys and if we all journey side by side now and then, we're truly blessed.

Also, to backtrack a little, we give so much of our time, attention and a sense of importance to our joys and our happiness. Maybe we need to realize that our sorrows, our fears and our distress also need our attention. Sitting with them, making them our family, getting to know the other stuff behind those feelings, will help us bring ourselves to a better place.

A better place where we are able to communicate ourselves better to the people that we hold dear, and take up our issues and our feelings with them. But to do so from a centered place within ourselves, such that our encounters become mutual learning sessions, instead of blame-fests or more opportunities to be hurt :D

The thing is, we are together because we have much to learn from each other. And I betcha everyone has something important to learn.

Oh, and a last point for me and others: one thing I've learned from the past several months is that people are also fragile, handle with care. Compassion is a good thing to bring along, and if you can help it, try not to create more hurt. Be mindful.

Love you.

;-)

At the beginning

I can't help it. I've always always always LOVED this song :D (a bit like Let Your Love Flow that I also love especially the Sister Hazel version). Found it again today because my Windows Media Player always does that to me, surprise me with songs I've always had but don't pick all the time. Maybe because I think people might think it a cheesy choice. Maybe because the reverse psych side of me sometimes avoids things that are "good" for me or are "substantial" (hehe!)? Maybe because a long long time ago, I shared it with an ex-lover and don't want to be brought back to those songs and that time (wala lang).

Notwithstanding all that, here goes. For everyone who means a lot to me and whom I want to be standing with at the end of the world, at the beginning :D.

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
At the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how are dreams could come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Richard Marx And Donna Lewis
At The Beginning

Moments

I love those little moments of absolute certainty.

When I wake up in the morning and ask Myself whether I still want to sleep or not and the answer comes back loud and clear -- no, you're ok, you're ready to be up and about, and hopefully, running :D. Then I know that I want to be up and about and extra sleep will just make me miserable.

Or when in the middle of working -- reading, writing, thinking -- I ask myself if I want to take a break -- watch tv, eat something, text, read something light. And then I feel that no I want to be working.

I love those :D. At those times, it's not even my conscience or the boss in me speaking, but the totally "I".

:-&

feel greeeeen. feel like i drank water from the swimming pool. eeeeeew.

anyway, must go read work and multiply :D

love to all those who need it :D

from, feeling love parade :P