if i were a vegetable

...i would be a tomato (TOMAHTOH say the British), round, red, juicy, nutritious or cancerous depending on the state of your own health :D works well with patis.

i feel a bit like a vegetable. am somewhat tired. have just finished with the thing that was due at 10 pm last night (hehe some deadlines are impossible promise). now what to do with the thing that was due at 6 am today? and as i am tapping the keys here it is 7 pm. i don't feel too stressed with all the crazy deadlines around here. others have it crazier (MUCH), and besides i'm trying to savor my last summer at this crazed house of workers on this street full of industry.

and i can certainly do with a kick on the butt now and then.

tomorrow i can go and pay all my bills that are past due.

my days and my weeks go by in themes. have been since the start of the year. bills are tomorrow. this week was work (oh and getting married, go figure hehe). last week was laidback and loving. the week before that was school.

i feel peaceful :) what a gift.

school supplies sentiments

sometimes it's all i can do
not to want to stick like glue :D

but then, if glue is what
i have to be
then glued is what i am.

(or maybe i'm a piece of pink post-it
attached but not too much.)

mother may i ;)

"oh mother dear, we sadly fear our mittens we have lost..."

yes, i am losing my marbles.

Relationships of all kinds, particularly romantic partnerships, are advanced through an increased understanding and open, honest communication, V. If you are currently involved in a love relationship, today it might advance to the next level of commitment. Also, any plans you make are likely to produce whatever results you want. Don't put anything off; make use of the day's energies. You'll be glad you did.

magkaharap

Me, repeat after Me: I am not my sadness. I am not my sadness. I am not my sadness. Hehehehe.


an 8 cubic feet invisible fridge
blocking the view, the door, my way
not amorphous in the air
not a scent of sadness
but solid.

it wants me,
wants only me,
and wants all of me.
it bears no escape no disguise
won't budge.

i stand in front of it
my sadness and i facing each other
squarely
eye to eye.

home again, jiggety jig

Stepped off the bus at Kamias to a lovely Easter Sunday late afternoon. :)

from the mouths of beach babes

Some Accumulated Wisdom from Our 24-Hour Feeding Program at the Diver's Sanctuary, Batangas

:P

1. When commuting to and from the Diver's Sanctuary from Lemery, Batangas, TAKE THE JEEP. Yes, let me say that again. Take the jeep!
Response: You just won't be able to help it, WAHAHAHAHA, you'll be rolling on the jeep laughing!

We never regretted turning down the special tricycle ride in favor of the jeep. Our banca ride to the resort awaited us at Baliti, the very end of the jeepney route that goes thru several rural barangays. Most of the passengers were very friendly with each other, and the ride exuded a particular charm.

The driver was this small laidback man, engaged in his own world, merrily driving along, without thought to his passengers who might need to get off at some point. Result: some truly high-decibel, community effort "para-han" or collectively getting the driver's attention to stop the jeep. Nerve-wracking but fun, guess that's what bayanihan is all about.

Like this lady screaming repeatedly, asking the driver's permission to go and buy kerosene. DD was like, what, why's she asking his permission to buy kerosene? It turned out she meant for the jeep to wait while she ran off to the store (and the store was a fair distance from the jeep because again, the driver wasn't listening and didn't stop in time hehehe). By the time we got to our stop, DD had thought up several favors for the jeepney driver including, "teka lang, gagatasan ko muna ang aking kambing." WAHAHAHAHA!

It didn't end there either. At a turn in the road, a lazy passenger suddenly threw out a carton of cigarettes screaming, "Paki-bigay kay Nanay!!"

2. Nakakapagod pala mag-swimming.
Response: WAHAHAHAHAHA!

Halos hindi kami nag swimming. Bakit? Kasi ...

3. Noong nagsabog ang Diyos ng tulog, napunta ang karamihan kay DD.
Response: WAHAHAHAHA!

Si DD tulog ng tulog. Si Buddha di makatulog, antay ng antay kay DD gumising. Si V basa ng basa at read aloud ng binasa niya (the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle is my book of the moment :)

4. Medyo mahirap mag-snorkeling kapag pakiramdam mo, sasab-it ka na sa corals.
Response: WAHAHAHAHAHA!

The corals and fishes by Ligpo Island remain interesting and colorful. However, it is a trial snorkeling at low tide when there is only a centimeter distance between your belly and the nice pink coral. Yes, even when you have sucked in your stomach and have taken advantage of your natural buoyancy. And the corals and fishes get tired of your constant apologies for bumping into them.

An alternative: Hie off to the pool overlooking the sea, and ask Joel to bring you some beers, and wait for a beautiful sunset. To sunsets!


5. Napakaganda ng kabilugan ng buwan sa tabi ng dagat.
Pagkatapos namin matulog pagkatapos ng bawat activity (halimbawa: pagkadating TULOG, pagkasnorkel at nood ng sunset TULOG, pagkakain TULOG) pinanood namin ang buwan at nagkuwentuhan ng mga bagay na di pa namin ever nagawa.



:) Bilang ending, gusto ko lang din magpasalamat sa aking dalawang masayahing kaibigan (hey DD and B) na hinayaan akong maging now-you're-with-her-now-you're-not. That was generous of you, thank you :). At nandoon naman ako para gisingin ng conductor ng bus para lamang magbayad ng ating mga ticket dahil sa sumpa ninyong dalawa na bawal magsalita, at ang sisira sa usapan ay kailangang bumaba ng bus! Grrrrrr! :P

mga bagay na di ko pa ever nagawa

1. magsuot ng swimsuit na puti
2. mag-spend ng Christmas kasama ang romantic significant other
3. maglaba ng undies ng significant other
4. maging miyembro ng mile-high club
5. magpakalbo
6. makipaghalikan sa babaeng may asawa (hahahaha)
7. mag-meet the father ng significant other (nag-meet the mother lang ako so far)
8. magpakasal

:D

i have an idea

around this time last year, i was pretty upset by a friend's attitude. i felt he was being defeatist. i couldn't get over it.

and then i realized, he could change if he wanted to :). and that thought made all the difference. we aren't stuck where we are. we can change.

maybe we can help each other. maybe you can show me the way :)

raffle tickets

three jo's

josephine, jo ann and joannalyn eat their way thru good friday.

as i am writing this by the side of the staircase, a couple is coupling on the tv. lol. joannalyn is watching y tu mama tambien. we miss you tita eds.

coping
hehe. sabi ko sa kaibigan ko parang hindi ko pa siya nadatnan na coping. ;)

ako naman, malinaw sa akin ang aking mga coping. halimbawa, sa kalagitnaan ng panonood ng sineng Ray, na masakit sa puso, naisipan kong mamalantsa (parang light bulb moment: aha mamamalantsa ako!). dahil mahaba ang sine, malapit ko nang matapos ang mga paplantsahin.

ang galing galing galing naman ng nanay ni Ray Charles Robinson! relax at watch a movie Ray kayo.

on the other side of the planet
finally in a few hours, we're going for our beach break, intentionally delayed. we think it's non-conformist to go when everyone else is heading home. also, there were other things i wanted to do, another person i wanted to be with (promise).

we're going to the other side of "planet" ligpo. two years ago, we were perched on top of ligpo island enjoying the breeze and the full moon shining above the mountains. i remember messaging magya who was by the chico river, and jean about that.

i hope tomorrow, by the side of the mountain, we still get to see the full moon. we promise not to cavort hehehe.

actually, d and i have this image of our disconsolate selves by the beach or on the bus. or maybe that's just me and b, being separately disconsolate together (gin dalahig) while d daydreams away.

full moon
dear full moon, please take care of those whom i have unintentionally slighted. (OA but true :) ) they are very dear to me.

roommie actually said: it will take a few years for you to adjust to each other's quirks.

ahhh, she is speaking from experience. at times, i am the most difficult person in the world.

thus sang parokya: sorry na talaga kung ako'y medyo tanga.

for it is as perennial as the grass

Max Ehrmann


Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.


Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.


Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.


Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.


You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.


Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.


With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.


Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

all in a day

Post ng walang magawa :P

I had coffee
Nuked some chicken
Boiled some veggies, made some rice
slurped a strawberry shake
was takam at the boss' brunch
so had some of her corned beef
omelet and rice
ordered sashimi and
one san mig light
(no rice)
picked at Rachel's pork bbq
taste-tested a pizza slice
and picked at Joanna's tocino.

at home, had a mango.

Mga Habilin :)

Sinabi ko doon sa isa kong minahal na kaibigan, sana kahit anong mangyari, puwede pa rin tayo magsabihan sa isa’t isa. ‘Yon ‘yong isa sa aming mga usapan. (Kahit di siya kumibo naramdaman ko ang kanyang pag-sangayon o di kaya sobrang overactive lang talaga ang aking imagination). Iniisip ko pa kung paano ko tutuparin ang aming mga usapan (hehe). Marahil ay magiging malinaw din kung papaano.

Ang bilin ko naman doon sa isa, sana ay huwag niyang kalimutan kung paano niya ako nakilala. Ang ibig kong sabihin, kung sino ako na nakilala niya :). (Pinakilala ko kasi talaga ang sarili ko sa kanya dahil iba ang inisip niyang ako. Pinaghirapan kong i-explain ang sarili ko at believe you me, ang pag-eexplain ay di madaling gawin at hindi ginagawa para sa lahat.) Nakakatuwa naman at sa tingin ko ay natutupad niya ito.

Kaya ikaw. Huwag mo akong kalimutan :).

***

And a good idea.

I would love to be invited to his wedding :D, and to attend with the one I love. Hmmm, how to finagle an invitation from an ex. Hahaha.

The other night, I was reminded of him, and I laughed out loud missing how we knew each other. He's one of the few people in the world who truly knows how buang I can be. Plus I really inherited a lot of his sense of humor (it was during my formative years when I was more malleable, hahahaha). I miss being friends with him, and the feeling that someone knows you really really well, and that’s perfect (no stress no worries just friendship).

We used to be quite good friends, and hung out sometimes. It's just he's one of those guys who decides to concentrate on his girlfriend when he's got one, perhaps to avoid trouble, and perhaps because he's a busy man. Still, I would be happy if we got back into friendship again. I have yet to be friends with an ex and their significant other. I think I would enjoy it too :), good vibes and affection all around. After all, we all choose each other so why shouldn't the people we choose choose each other too?

it's all working out ok :)

all of this afternoon, i was again tucked in a corner, doing my presentation for work. a colleague acted as tech support (actually he was just bored and had nothing better to do than look over my shoulder at the pc :P). i finished about two hours before i was due to report :P. photo-finish again, yup yup. but i had my reasons.

the day before that, in that very same corner, i created my own little world, answering stat exercise questions and organizing therapy notes. with my right hand, i swatted off kulit colleagues merely wanting to get a rise out of studious me. with my left, i shielded my face from other colleagues who undoubtedly deserved my efforts and attention except that i really could not address them just yet. priorities, priorities. tomorrow is another day :D

the day before that, i tackled a report for work. and the day before that day i speed-read thru 16 chapters of a book for an exam i needed to pass. and the day before that, read a reading (it crackled as a pillow).

the end thus far is that i think i did well in one exam, did ok in the one i needed to pass, finished my reports, went to my classes, and spent some time with the people i wanted to spend time with.

:D. i still have WORK to do, but if i keep up with this pace, i'll hopefully wipe the slate clean soon.

summer and promises

Things I want to do this summer
(list #2, pansy fancy version ;)

1. live in the moment of every day
2. enjoy my upcoming summer class, six intense days. (i can picture it in my mind, and i can't wait)
3. aim: a kick-ass end to an eight-year career (ay!). meaning, i can also picture, for the month of april, less six intense summer class days and six intense weekend days (two of the class days are Saturdays), the sum total of 18 intense workdays. and so on in the month of May.
4. it looks like, from where i am right now, i might be able to sneak a few days off to region six in May :) ha! Bora Bora Bora Bora Bora (hear the drumbeat for Bora, gfs and bfs?). am not sure yet though. as am sure all of you know, things can change any second :)
5. try not to take too many unnecessary taxi-rides (hehe, my concession to love)
6. enjoy the pleasure of your company, girls and boys you, and mine too :)


In the next three weeks starting from today, things could go haywire ;-)MERCURY RETROGRADE
For the next three weeks -- and you'd better sit down for this -- you
won't be able to connect, compute or get where you want to go with ease.
It's not you, it's Mercury. Have plan B and plan C ready at all times.

I want to promise myself some guidelines for the time when the planet Mercury moves backward in the sky:
1. Exercise patience, and live and let go :)
2. Enjoy every moment of every day.
3. Double-check arrangements, and live and let go :)
4. Did I say continue my walking-prayer-meditations? ;-)
5. Be grateful (thank you!)
6. Give and receive love, and let go :)
7. Leave it to the angels ;) (galingan niyo angels ha. hehehe what a Capricorn admonishment.)

And now am off to my working weekend. Am late na. Lol!

si K na alam ang lahat

pardon me if i make up new words as i go along :P

kasi sinabi ko gusto ko maging peministang-sikolohista, sabi ni K, hetong sa'yo, matuto ka nga diyan kung seryoso ka talaga.

kasi minsan nagsasayang ako ng panahon kaya ngayon naghahabol ako ng oras, kaya sabi ni K, hetong sa'yo, basahin mo yan para ma-inspire ka, at heto pa, kilalanin mo para matuto ka.

kasi minsan masyado akong maraming inaalala o pagaalinlangan kaya sabi ni K, hetong teacher mo ngayon para matuto ka sa kanya ng power of now, at hetong mga kaklase mo, sabay kayong matututo. at heto pa siya na marunong magbigay ng buong puso sa bawa't sandali.

tapos, sabi pa ni K, ano na nga yong binubulong-bulong mo sa tabi na ayaw mo ng ________, at sana may parang __________, para puwedeng ________. hetong sa'yo.

at sa marami pang dahilan, at basta lang, ang galing talaga ni K.

sabi niya pati, enjoy mo ha.

sabi ko naman -- sabay kislap ng mata -- oo ba.

looking back

looking back, i am REALLY happy that i said i love you when i did a year or so ago. :)

tanned brown with green eyes

ahh, that monster, you know. that strikes like a dagger to your craw. do you kill it, do you slay it? do you feed it, justify it? is it cool? is it love? is it stuff, baggage you're carrying around?

what to do with jealousy? what's the dish on possesiveness?

1. go off the deep end.
Like what Grace Adler did in last Saturday's episode of Will and Grace. When she realized that Diane, her hubby Leo's ex, Diane, was the very same Diane, the only woman Will has ever had sex with, Grace saw red. She went off to the kitchen and chopped the life out of all the tomatoes. She screamed, "Dinner's ready!" when the tomatoes were juice.

2. scold the issue away
In his book, 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, Stephen Covey tells the story of his little daughter's birthday party and how the little guests wanted to borrow the new toys his daughter had received as gifts. Now, Stephen, being known as a relationship guru got self-conscious that the parents present at the party were wondering how he would deal with the issue, whether he could make his daughter share. So he went up to her and asked her to share. She wouldn't though, she flatly refused, and kept on clutching the toys to her chest.

3. deny it
When it really bothers me, I truly can't deny it :).

4. confess it
Though I hated having to do it, but in the spirit of being true to my suffering self, I did tell a gf a few years back when I was jealous as hell... err uncomfortable and unhappy... that she and this guy I yearned for ... were chatting. Hahahaha, silly but true. I was not at all ready to share him, even with people I love!

So.

Later, when he had some time to think about what happened, Stephen said he should have not scolded his daughter. Instead, at that moment, he should have allowed her the feeling of possession. He said he should have just deflected the kids' attention from his daughter and given her the space and time to fully possess her new gifts and toys. He said that when his daughter would have fully claimed ownership of the toys, then she would have been free to share the toys with the other kids.

A teacher of mine also said that people find it easier to forgive when they are happy or secure. So I guess, in the same vein, it is harder to get jealous when one is secure :). When happy and secure, sharing's a cinch.

That's why it was never an issue for Grace that Diane was Leo's ex. She knew that Leo loved her. What hurt was that Diane had gone to bed with Will,and Grace and Will, who loved each other fiercely, and knew each other inside out, who had always been there for each other, had never gotten it on. Will is gay but how come Diane?!

Awww, poor Grace.

But Will did say, just when Grace was about to chop Diane to pieces at the dinner table, that Diane had meant nothing. That he cared about Grace. That in fact, Diane and Will happened when they were drunk, and Will was grieving over Grace. Spent the entire day at Jack's crying over Grace.

So Grace was mollified, and the green monster shrank and disappeared into thin air.

As for me, the problem with confessing to gf, was putting some of the burden on gf. I knew that gf loved me, loves me still, and wouldn't do anything unknowingly to hurt me. Still, it's a no-no to stop people from getting to know each other, and I knew that.

Stephen's story was reassuring because it affirmed what I thought then. That the reason I felt so jealous, gf, was because I never knew where I stood with that cutie :P He was never mine to share, and that was a particularly sticky time. Thank you for bearing with me then.

and all I want to say is that when the green monster pops up in your face, be patient with yourself, getting over jealousy is a process. it's great when the people you're having issues with love you, and will sit with you thru your stuff but it's not always the case. some things you have to sit out alone.

fill yourself with love, and stay away from sharp objects. :P

salamat po

super busy pero mag blog pa rin.

ito na dapat ang "hell week" ng aking 2005 so far pero hindi talaga hell, parang heaven. hehehe. hindi nayayanig ng mahabang listahan ng kailangang gawin ang aking katahimikan. enjoy nga eh.

gifted yata ako this 2005. sunod sunod ang gifts -- blessed pala ang ibig kong sabihin ;-) -- may grace, may love, may clear skies straight onto the Pacific Coast Highway, ay Katipunan Road. kaya gusto ko lang iparating kay Kabunian, maraming salamat. napapansin ko kung gaano na ako ka "gifted." gagawin ko ang aking makakaya para hindi masayang? para lumago pa ang mga biyaya.

humayo na't magparami.

Para kay Bryan

Si Bryan na walang malay. Hehehe.

I have lately concluded, Bryan, that love is not for the faint of heart.

So I pray and wish for a heart as big as the ocean, as wide as the sky, to encompass all that is you.

;-)

Paano kasi, 'yang si Bryan na 'yan mahal ko.

P.S. Atin atin lang. Wag sabihin kay Bryan.

opo opm

Paumanhin (paumanhin ba talaga?) sa lahat ng kakilala kong ayaw kay Regine V. Hindi ako fan, promise. Kaso lang meron kasi siyang napupunuang pangangailangan. Gaya ng pagkanta nito, na mas sweet ang dating dahil babae ang kumakanta. Bagama't gusto ko rin ang Rivermaya, para kasing neurosis pag male version.

ang ating ending
hatid sa bahay n'yo
sabay goodnight, sabay may kiss
sabay bye-bye
...
sa school sa flag ceremony
hanggang uwian araw-araw
hinahanap-hanap kita
hinahanap-hanap kita
at kahit na magka-anak kayo't
magkatuluyan balang araw
hahanap-hanapin ka

At di ba ang cutie lang ng Harana that goes:

Uso pa ba ang harana
Marahil ikaw ay nagtataka
Sino ba 'tong mukhang GAGA
Nagkandarapa sa pagkanta
At nasisintonado sa kaba

di tumapik sa dingding

hahaha.

naguguilty ako.

naguguilty ako na si binky ay hindi tumapik sa dingding, gaya ng inadvertise namin kay HB. nagbago na pala siya HB, nakikipagkumustahan na lang daw siya, at naglalagaw, hindi na tumatapik sa dingding o di kaya sa poste.

si Binky talaga.

si Binky talaga, mali ang timing. kumanta ba naman nung meron pa akong gustong gawing iba.

o baka ako 'yun?

lambing nation continues on music trip

Today it's Apo ;-)

Minsan kahit na pilitin mong uminit ang damdamin
Di siya susunod, at di maglalambing
...
At kahit na anong gawin
Di mo na mapilit at madaya
Aminin sa sarili mo
Na wala ka ng mabubuga


I remember when I explained Apo Hiking Society to Ate Nina. It was a huge task, suddenly urgent, to explain to someone in the process of discovering and defining her Filipino self, an institution such as Apo, something we've grown up with and have much respect and affection for. And something that needs familiarity with the Filipino language. Something that shows just how sweet and loving we can be (as in "Pare, I love you!" Hehehe!).


AbM7 Bb7/Ab Gm7 Cm
Mahal kita, mahal kita, hindi ito bola
Fm7 Bb7 Bbm7/Eb Eb7
Ngumiti ka man lang sana ako'y nasa langit na
AbM7 Bb7/Ab Gm7 Cm
Mahal kita, mahal kita, hindi ito bola
Fm7 (Fm/D) G pause (Intro once)
Sumagot ka naman 'wag lang ewan.

Em7 Am7 Em7 Am7
Sana naman itigil mo na 'yang
Dm Dm7 G7sus G7
Kakasabi ng ewan at anong bola na naman 'yan
Em7 Am7 Em7 Am7
Bakit ba ganyan, binata'y di alam
Dm Dm7 G7sus G7
Na ang ewan ay katulad na rin ng oong inaasam


A few years hence, I'm at my computer, nagpapakabingi sa Apo. Ate Nina, however, has long since learned to belt out Apo, and Eheads to her heart's content given a mic and a videoke machine. And strum the guitar too.

a Wonder

Who doesn't love Stevie Wonder will run out of toilet paper for a year. Hehehe.

Katuwaan

Dahil kami ay sadyang malandi at sadyang mababaw, naging matagumpay ang aming pagpapaligaya sa mga kapekpek, este kabaro, dito sa opisina.

Una may I give kami ni HB sa bawat ka-vagina ng one stem pink mums with matching pink ribbon. Yong guapo at charming kong inaanak, si Aemon, ang nag-distribute. Pati nga yong sister na tiga kabilang dako ng V. Luna, binilhan namin at madalas nagtatampo pag wala siyang pasalubong.

Pagkatapos, pinamudmod namin yong ¾ pan ng sticky brownies at inilabas ang piece de resistance ng aming spontaneous women’s day spirit, ang Hidden Book of Birthdays ni Judith Turner. Ayun, walang tigil na ang katuwaan habang kinilatis namin isa-isa ang mga psychic revelations na nakasulat tungkol sa bawat isa sa amin. Nagpa-xerox pa nga ang karamihan!

Siyempre pa, meron akong paboritong mga linya doon sa aking profile: You will have the sensitivity to maintain long-lasting relationships, the sensuality to ignite great passion, and the common sense to enjoy them both.

Naks naman. Ako ba yon? Ako nga yata ;-) Hahahaha.

to the women in my life, and to those in yours ...

CHEERS!

"No journey carries one far, unless, as it extends into the world around us, it goes an equal distance into the world within." -- Lilian Smith, The Journey.

To our journeys! To women!

HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY.

the travel agent is away

According to my schedule, I'm supposed to read and internalize two chapters of my textbook a night for the next 5 nights. I have to pace myself for the next two weeks because in the rulebook of Life's Like That, everything comes to a pass all in the same time period. To name most:

1. two exams on the same days as our Board meeting
2. an integration paper
3. letters to all my classmates
4. and many of the prep requirements for our women's launch at the end of the month.

Plus I try to avoid missing significant amounts of sleep because in that way I can ensure I'll be in a good mood however busy I may be.

Which means I don't have the time to arrange our Our Annual Holy Trip to the Beach, as I have done most years :). Pity, it's one of the things I really like to do in a year. Hehe. Volunteer coordinators most welcome ;-). I'll prepare my sunblock.

the odd fascinations

I am obsessed with serendipity, the color orange and the number 9. Have a look at Andrea's nice entry on odd fascinations.

Here’s mine.

I am obsessed with the way jeans or slacks fit over a man’s lower abs (and no lower promise), I find it moving. Weird but true. Especially when these aren’t pleated trousers, and aren’t high waist. Ang cute. I liked Jamie Wilson's black slacks in The Blue Room.

I am obsessed with my solitary Sundays in my windy house. I. Love. It. Particularly when it gets really really hot and I am inside, looking out, reading.

I am obsessed with astrology, at guessing people’s sun signs from how they behave, and reveling in how people’s being can be so different, and how interesting it is when everyone gets together with all their differences, and start creating different universes.

I am obsessed with reading, in that not a day goes by when I don’t read at least a page of a book. It’s as essential as breathing.

I am obsessed with airplanes, earthquakes and good driving :P

I am obsessed with summer, bikinis, and staring swimming smiling at the sea.

I am obsessed with finding the connection between things, people and places :P

I am obsessed with learning to be a better me, no matter how much it vexes me. Hehe.

summer break. see you.

catch

Sometimes I catch myself blaming it all/ mostly on the other person. And I am grateful that I catch myself doing so. After all, we’re all the same – spiritual beings undergoing a human experience, and no one is better than the other. We have conjured up the realities of ourselves and these people in our lives so that we may learn, so that our buttons may be pushed, so that we can say ouch! Or sigh happily.

The least and the most we can do, is extend each other the kindness of being. All right, go on, be yourself!

And I’ll be me. Fleeting, feeling, thinking, being.

(Eating, eating, eating! Hehehehe!)

usap with tita e

ok lang sa akin naiiyak, tumatawa, natutuwa, nagmamahal, nagdidiskusyon, at pati na rin ang walang kailangan sabihin.

gusto ko ang nakakausap at nakakaladkad, at kung ano pang puwedeng idagdag.

ayaw ko ang inaabandona at inaaway ng walang dahilan. gusto kong malaman kung bakit, para kasali pa rin ako.

hehehe.

lyrics freak

my favorite lines in Sister Hazel's Life Got in the Way used to be:

And I wanted you so much
Just like I do right now
I wanted us to be the one
The poets write their books about
I wanted it to last
I wanted to grow old
But life got in the way

Now, it's this:

We knew it all from a little thing
It was everything in our first minute
And it took us to another place
Yeah another place and we fell in it
How dare you not remember
How dare you walk away
We adored every little thing
Every little thing would leave us breathless
Every dawn split another day
And in another day we weren’t so restless
How dare you not remember
How dare you walk away

:D i lab lyrics! don't you?

love song for the new month of March

You’ve got to give a little, take a little,
And let your poor heart break a little.
That’s the story of, that’s the glory of love.

You’ve got to laugh a little, cry a little,
Until the clouds roll by a little.
That’s the story of, that’s the glory of love.

As long as there’s the two of us,
We’ve got the world and all it’s charms.
And when the world is through with us,
We’ve got each other’s arms.

You’ve got to win a little, lose a little,
Yes, and always have the blues a little.
That’s the story of, that’s the glory of love.
That’s the story of, that’s the glory of love.

THE GLORY OF LOVE
Bette Midler