sugilanon

siling sang miga ko, "indi ko bala hungod pero naluyag gid ko kay (ngalan sang migo niya) ..."

hahahahaha. huo huo, ako man ako man. indi ko man hungod. (pero wala ko ya naluyag sa migo niya ah).

nakahambal man siya gani nga ano na ya kuno kadamo lang sang parti sa lab sa blog niya. (pero sige lang kuno, tutal iya man na ya blog). ako man ako man. ginhambal ko man na sa lawas ko. wala man sa ginapagamay ko akon kalibutan no (kay wala man gid, gusto ko gani magdako) ... gakapinsaran ko lang nga mas mayo magkalabot ako sa damo pa nga iban nga bagay. (may ara man ko labot ah, wala ko lang ginagusto isulat).

ayos?

days of october

on tuesday, i submit a case study
on wednesday, we present a research paper, and submit a finals paper
on friday, we submit the final research paper

the week after that...

tuesday, an exam
thursday, submit final long-quiz
friday, submit final end of term paper

and then after that, i go to Boracay.

wahahahahaha.

sabunot self. :D

trickster friendster

wahahahaha. am glad i haven't been up to stalking lately (not that it's a regular habit :P like blogging). someone sent me a friendster smile today, and so, logged in, i discovered that you can now check who looked at your profile in the last 30 days. (friend says you can set your settings to anonymous, but still)

did i really not peek at anyone's profile in the month of September? yeah, i did. guapo mo kasi. love you, pare. hehehe.

ang sa akin lang

Nakakailang kung paano nagtutugma ang lahat ng aking skedyul sa susunod na dalawang buwan. Nakakanerbiyos ng kaunti dahil "to-the-day" ang pagkaayos ng mga magaganap (sila-sila na ang nag-ayos, i swear). Pero magaling pa rin ang pagkaayos dahil walang nagkakasabay (double or multiple-booking) at may tama lang na one-day transitions. Pati ang mga deadline ay mangyayari sa tamang panahon. Ang masasabi ko na lamang ay, katok-katok, Salamat Po!

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May bumabagabag sa aking isipan. Nakikinita ko na kailangan ko nang kausapin ang management ng Yoni, ang "aming" grocery, na tigilan na nila ang kanilang anniversary jingle-advert. Hindi talaga nakakatulong. Nakakasira ng grocery experience. Sa halip ng masayahin o soothing music, nakakasira ng araw ang walangtigil na recording. Promise.

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O siya, hanggang sa susunod at tambak pa ang aking mga gagawin. Pero, masaya naman ;)

oh :)

i miss you already!

and do take care of yourself.

i hope we'll be friends forever.


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hmmmm. as an aside: if i were to propose, that's what i would say :D

bits

i caught myself nodding vigorously to a friend's comment, nodding yes the way you do. (it felt like it.)

*******

a gf telling me about her to-have-a-baby-or-not-to-have-a-baby soon question. said she plans to give birth here. goodie. i replied maybe i should make sabay. which got her excited. her hubby has declared he doesn't want to see her in pain. so maybe, gf and i can hold each other's hands and scream together in the act. hehehe! after all, we did swear to be co-parents long ago.

*******

gf 2: yes you're entitled to emote.
gf 3: yes, that's one thing am absolutely sure of.

gf 2: bakit mo siya nagustuhan?
gf 3: ewan ko. tanungin mo ang puso ko.

naks naman :D

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aemon: bravo maya bravo!

HB HB

HB HB,
originally uploaded by Pansy.

Happy Birthday tomorrow Honeybun ;))

May you dance forever and a day.

theme song

it's been a week and am still so in love with:

As now can't reveal the mystery of tomorrow
But in passing will grow older every day ...

julan

possible elements of this sabado:

vick's (hehe)
vit. c
hot stuff (coffee, soup, tea, sinigang)
kumot
textbook
pleasure reading
internet
umbrellas

now that i have ascertained that i have no comment on case study 1 (for racket #2),
let's go to sleep for tomorrow and the day after i have trainors' training (for racket/volunteer work #3)!!!!!!

paumod

in the balanced libra light of day or rain of day (like today),
i know the answer is in paumod.

the answer has always been paumod. :) from day one.
the rule should be, never at the same time.

it's like a seesaw. when one takes the extreme end,
the other has to take the other just to keep the balance.

can i do paumod? :)
(this reminds me of that once rhetorical question,
would i move a million miles for love?)

yes, i can do paumod.
if you'll do paumod too.

(hehehe! that appears to be the only secret to keeping the peace with me
forever and ever, amen. i'll wash the dishes if you'll wash the
dishes too. i'll let your mood pass if you'll let my mood pass
too. my Capricorn nature will give to the nth degree if i can
trust that you'll pull your own weight. lol. it's not as bad or
as mercenary as it sounds, promise. it's quite sweet. and it's
the reason why roommie and i work out.

or i could be wrong ;)) )

pusis

roommie: huy, wag kang aalis bukas. dito lang tayo. magwork tayo. wag kang aalis ha.

pansy: huh? bakit mo ba ako kinukulong? mas possessive ka pa sa bf ko.

roommie: huh? eh hindi naman talaga possessive ang bf mo.

ahahaha

picture this: the girl to my left with her hair up, and wearing eyeglasses has a stack of thesis to her left and is busily typing in the salient points of these onto her laptop. behind me, studious guy is copiously taking notes from his thick textbook.

i, on the other hand, after booting out the girl occupying the table next to the electric socket, have been chatting with dd, dawdled at friendster for a minute, and now am blogging.

all of us in the grand company of bookshelves upon bookshelves of thesis and dissertations, years of pain and joy holding each other up in this small section of my favorite library.

***

the bigger news is that as of 12 minutes ago, i have become officially married. yes. you heard it right.

on friendster. i pronounced myself married. my bridal attire: peach long sleeved top, Levi's low-waist jeans and my brown calf-boots, so there! married and dressed comfily, it doesn't get any better than that! i am even wearing my women-men symbols ring.

hahahaha.

***

on my second try, i still haven't caught the presentation of the research titled "boys don't cry or do they?" i was late to the forum mainly because i was glued to the tv watching this plane with twisted wheels (or something like that) attempt an emergency landing at LAX.

ahhhh, the stuff of my nightmares. every few seconds i'd click to a more cheerful channel.

but they landed safely in the time i finally got into the shower.

whew. my bar of soap, 100+ lives.

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didn't get to sleep early last night either because tita e and i caught the finale of rockstar inxs (right after i oriented her on all the characters of one tree hill and their various inter-relations) on our beige couch.

what can i say? :D bagay si jd. but contests like this in the end make you think twenty other thoughts about the prize itself. that in the end there's more than one prize, and the original prize isn't really all that it's cut out to be, after all. that you lost, but still, you won.

kasi, the black guy didn't win, the women didn't win, the mabait rocker-theater person Capricorn didn't win, or Libran sweetie blondie Marty didn't win. in the end, JD, the angsty bratty inconsistent but hella sexy singer guy won. worlds have changed and haven't.

ayos lang pareng migs, lika dito hug kita. (hehehe i guess dahon gets marty). so cute, he thanked australia and the philippines. also, that bohemian rhapsody of his (sorry for the stereotype but for lack of a better description), was soooo gay. it was great and all, but i guess, not inxs.

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and now am stuck wanting to gulp some pepsi and needing the bathroom, but having to defend my socket-available table, and protect my belongings.

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take care, you.

aht and eating

food and eating out being one of the great urban preoccupations (and cause of cash drain), here are three breakfast tips if you find yourself on matalino st. and immediate side sts.

1. garlic longganisa at alex grill (till 10 or 11 am only)
2. tocino at mocha blends (all day)
3. tapa at pancake house (all day)


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in Frozen, the play staged by the New Voice Company, the mother character talks of her daughter who urges her to forgive the killer of her other daughter. specifically, to go see him, let go, and create space in her life.

"She now has this way of talking. Like a diet and exercise book."

Hahahaha. That made me laugh.

(it was really good btw. i wish more people saw it :) )

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Dahon, today in Starting Over, the roommates moped, missing Denise. Hahahaha. That gaga gaga girl. I don't know if she's Capricorn but her being so broomhilda sometimes, I wouldn't be surprised.

But they made Candy, the woman with the lengths of curly red hair, the one who's plump and beautiful like mother earth (if only she could see it) pose for three women artists. And oh my, her portraits were gorgeous, three different portraits in different media. Very goddess-sy. Iyanla made her point.

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And last night, we wanted to dance. Jazz.


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back to foodie-ness, i was sitting at my school dep't a few days ago seriously craving chocolait. how happy it made me to discover ice cold Milo at the caf. Yoohoo. ;))

heard on sunday radio

As
by Stevie Wonder

As around the sun the earth knows she's revolving
And the rosebuds know to bloom in early May
Just as hate knows love's the cure
You can rest your mind assure
That I'll be loving you always
As now can't reveal the mystery of tomorrow
But in passing will grow older every day
Just as all is born is new
Do know what I say is true
That I'll be loving you always

Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky---ALWAYS
Until the ocean covers every mountain high---ALWAYS
Until the dolphin flies and parrots live at sea---ALWAYS
Until we dream of life and life becomes a dream

Did you know that true love asks for nothing
Her acceptance is the way we pay
Did you know that life has given love a guarantee
To last through forever and another day
Just as time knew to move on since the beginning
And the seasons know exactly when to change
Just as kindness knows no shame
Know through all your joy and pain
That I'll be loving you always
As today I know I'm living but tomorrow
Could make me the past but that I mustn't fear
For I'll know deep in my mind
The love of me I've left behind Cause I'll be loving you always

Until the day is night and night becomes the day---ALWAYS
Until the trees and seas just up and fly away---ALWAYS
Until the day that 8x8x8 is 4---ALWAYS
Until the day that is the day that are no more
Did you know that you're loved by somebody?
Until the day the earth starts turning right to left---ALWAYS
Until the earth just for the sun denies itself
I'll be loving you forever
Until dear Mother Nature says her work is through---ALWAYS
Until the day that you are me and I am you---AL~~~~~~WA~~
~~~~~AA~~~~~~~AA~~~~
Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky~~~~~AA~~~~
~~~~AA~~~~~~~AA~~~~~~~~~AA~~~~~~~YS~~ALWAYS

We all know sometimes lifes hates and troubles
Can make you wish you were born in another time and space
But you can bet you life times that and twice its double
That God knew exactly where he wanted you to be placed
so make sure when you say you're in it but not of it
You're not helping to make this earth a place sometimes called Hell
Change your words into truths and then change that truth into love
And maybe our children's grandchildren
And their great-great grandchildren will tell
I'll be loving you

Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky--Loving you
Until the ocean covers every mountain high--Loving you
Until the dolphin flies and parrots live at sea--Loving you
Until we dream of life and life becomes a dream--Be loving you
Until the day is night and night becomes the day--Loving you
Until the trees and seas up, up and fly away--Loving you
Until the day that 8x8x8x8 is 4--Loving you
Until the day that is the day that are no more--Loving you
Until the day the earth starts turning right to left--Be loving you
Until the earth just for the sun denies itself--Loving you
Until dear Mother Nature says her work is through--Loving you
Until the day that you are me and I am you--
Now ain't that loving you
Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky
Ain't that loving you
Until the ocean covers every mountain high
And I've got to say always
Until the dolphin flies and parrots live at sea~~AL~~~WA~~~AYS
Until we dream of life and life becomes a dream-Um AL~~WA~~AYS
Until the day is night and night becomes the day-AL~~~~WA~~AYS
Until the trees and seas just up and fly away-AL~~WA~~~AA~~~~~
Until the day that 8x8x8 is 4~~~~~AA~~~~~~~AA~~~~~~~AA
Until the day that is the day that are no more-AA~~~~AA~~AA~~~AYS
Until the day the earth starts turning right to left-AL~~~WA~~~A~~~AA
Until the earth just for the sun denies itself-~~AA~~~AA~~~AA~~~AYS
Until dear Mother Nature says her work is through-AL~~~WAYS
Until the day that you are me and I am you
Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky
Until the ocean covers every mountain high
Until the dolphin flies and parrots live at sea
Until we dream of life and life becomes a dream
Until the day is night and night becomes the day
Until the trees and seas just up and fly away
Until the day that 8x8x8 is 4
Until the day that is the day that are no more
Until the day the earth starts turning right to left
Until the earth just for the sun denies itself
Until dear Mother Nature says her work is through
Until the day that you are me and I am you

red for rainy days

cheesecake!001,
originally uploaded by Pansy.

from my shoebox of pics. an old one by dd.

how dare i

accuse a stone of not having feelings :D
maybe, it does, like i do. ;))

as you can super see

i am taking the torturous route to quiz no. 6

grrrrr. rain. memory. memory. memory. (quiz no. 6 is on memory and i need to be gone already)

"all my hard work is finally paying off"

paying off, i don't know. the hard work isn't it?
said like a true capricorn.

(denise, bal-an, is leaving the Starting Over house, her hard work is finally paying off, daw :D)

if i could draw cartoons :D

i will, i think ;)

the ever-absent present

ka BAHUL na gid na ya.

if it's meant to be, so shall it be.

spread your fingers wide open.

early

a most excellent morning :D

due to synchronicity (wahahaha) i kept waking up in starts to read my groupmate's text messages at 2 am asking if i could interview respondent number 1 at 745 am. of course of course. my fear of not having respondents is much greater than my love of sleep. i even woke up again "in time" to read her text message at 701, and i rolled out of bed at 727 to get ready for the 745 am interview. i arrived at the uni at 755, no respondent yet. i pretended to be a psych major making tambay at the possessively-labeled benches. man, 'twas too early and too cold to be sitting on the dirty stairs :D (just that i remembered the dark looks we threw at strangers sitting innocently on our tambayan benches, back when we had a tambayan, or rather, back when our college org was still alive huhuhuhu).

teacher arrived past nine am, flamboyantly and colorfully, waving to the various students waiting for her, and saying my groupmate's name out loud. aquarian, i said to myself, amused and amazed at her presence. very aquarian, again i said to myself, as she waved a student to a pc, pulled up chairs for us, and in the midst of it all and everyone, we conducted our interview.

i was very impressed, she was very spiritual, and the perfect respondent for our topic (meaning, she more than has the concept of synch, she lives it). she cried a bit remembering how her relationship with God started, and all throughout the interview my little hairs (:P) kept standing up. i thanked her profusely for her time.

then i went to have breakfast at the old college cafe, where everything's mostly the same except now there's brewed coffee. :D i had ampalaya, spam, rice and coffee. a most excellent breakfast. then texted everyone to do the same thing again some time (the human compulsion to repeat good experiences hehe, the OC search for good times). then i walked a bit and thought of buying someone flowers but didn't want to leave it at a desk, so saved the thought for next time.

i must say the early birds probably do get some good worms. time for a nap now though, do you think? hehehe!

the nose knows

whole day late night thoughts and though words are cheap, writing them out makes them a commitment:

that i really want to live up to some of the things i said i (would) do, no excuses
that i never want to crowd you (and a good cute question is how many times is a healthy number of times to say i love you :D in a day)
that i never consciously want to hurt you, even in my thoughts, and the words i say, and have lately even taken notice of the things i can't say anymore because they aren't true anymore, because i have already chosen you

and many other thoughts that i keep to myself but release out to the universe for support for good wishes.

clouds in my coffee

roommie wants me to go and enjoy a cuppa at the neighborhood coffeeshop. her treat, she says.

but two treats in one day at the same cafe might be pushing it.

i'm the girl who doesn't want to watch one movie after another because i want to savor the feeling of one movie at a time :D

(and also because i just had coffee from somewhere else before her invitation, hehehe!)

para kay nanay

Nanay,

There are words
that only a mother
can say,
things
that only a mother
can know...

Help
that only a mother
can give,
Care
that only a mother
can show

And those times
when only a mother
will do,
I feel so lucky
because
I have you.

Happy BIRTHDAY!

(again, Hallmark's but it goes for me and mother too :D)

can't help it :D

all my good intentions keep getting swept away in the face of friendship and fun :)

but nevermind, there's a time for everything, under heaven. and friendship is so much more than just a good intention.

eh ikaw kaya

time and time and time and time again,

it's so easy to pronounce

when it isn't you in the hotseat

to pronounce and denounce and judge

easy peasy :D

but when it's you in a situation

wahahahaha

the joke's on you ;)

the irony's almost enough

to shut you up for life :D

(and so here i kneel, hat in hand
except that i don't wear hats because
of my bangs, pleeeeeease universe,
may it please you ;))) )

Monday beerness

;))

the way my week's set up, Monday is my most laidback day :) (and so too next sem, I think). and i've grown to love the respite that the beginning of the week brings. usually, i just have a date with liza (more on this some other time), and my personal chores and errands. or an exra racket deadline or two.

so, when i got home, i felt like a beer and some bbq. but no! priestess already had a beer and some bbq! bryan already had several beers somewhere. tita eds is in germany. roommie doesn't drink. jayson makes you go thru an entire interview portion about what's the agenda and why don't i go with my lover (hehehe. agenda: hunger). luckily, hb says yes to a bottle. and some bbq.

woohoo. ;)

a few things we know because of fathers

that being smart and quiet are often the same thing.
that naps can happen almost anywhere.
that respect is something you earn.
that money is, too.
that the most important of all the senses is a sense of humor.
that love is a verb.
that life is a journey.
And no, we're not there yet.

Happy Birthday Dad!

(Hallmark's ;) but it fits me and father)

this one's for you ;)

footloose,
originally uploaded by Pansy.

mwah!

losing my religion

my thursday teacher asked, "so class, what happens when you lose your short-term memory?"

hahaha. story of my life. she should have asked my friends. last night i recommended a pair of shoes to HB that i meant to say were in red and black but it turns out i said were in red and blue (she saved my text message!).

and just now, i asked the priestess, if she had seen her pic with ovaltine at friendster???? HAHAHAHAHA. I meant at flicker. She panicked, of course! Having someone tell you your pic with a man holding a bouquet of yellow roses is on friendster somewhere, is worlds different from having someone tell you it's on her flicker account.

or talked to my mom who roll-calls before she hits on the right kid (don-pops-joy?). or talked to my lola who does the same thing only with seven kids in all.

the things that bespeak one's affection

more on the A train.

Someone once told me that all that he wished for from a partner in his future was affection :) (i wish you! i wish you!). I've remembered it because it seemed to me then to be a simple thing that he wished for.

Guess who wrote this passage (a prize for the one who guesses first). I like the between the hyphens :)
"Tangible touchstones of affection like that have a way of insulating the love that is already beautifully shared, in the same way that it can soften the pain that such a love can entail. It diffuses into more manageable bits the differences that are a reality in any relationship. If not for the little things – the things that bespeak one’s affection – we would never be as close a couple as we are."

As the girlfriend who had a yellow umbrella, did also describe: because love can be as simple as when you get to meet a special person--one who is kind and decent and loving and honest and generous with affection.

Wala lang to. Hehehe.

if there's time before breakfast...

why don't you just marry me, and let's get this over with :)

so anyway :)

i'm dumbfounded. have actually been feeling really rather loving today :D. behind the words there's just love. behind the exasperation, there's just love. have you heard of loving exasperation? :)

today, i realized that maybe, for me, there's really no backing out. maybe this is it. i mean, hell, yeah.

but anyway. that's just me :).

(ps. i am not george bush :D ... don't train those damn missiles on me! :))

commitment

"if you're listening, that which you seek is also seeking you," so Wednesday teacher quoted someone (hahaha didn't catch who). "other people call this synchronicity," she added.

that pleased me no end because that's how i read the book Synchronicity by Joseph Jaworski I was telling you all about a few months ago. JJ talked about synchronicity happening (invisible helping hands) when you commit yourself to your truths, your goals, your dreams. you know, when in your heart of hearts, you know you want something, and then you give all of yourself, your being, to pursuing that dream, that vision, and if it is truly your truth and what you are destined to be doing, then it is as if a "ground of being" opens up that supports you, because what you are doing is part of the whole, of the dynamic interrelated universe. there is a whole new space for you and your dream.

and so we always have a part in creating the future that we want to step into :)

does that seem to make sense to you? some of the elements that i understand to be part of the above:

1. it has to be the truest of truths, not something you just want to happen so you can pass off another version of yourself

2. it has to be something to the good, something you can will do/ be, that will redound to the good of everyone

3. and this is where commitment comes in, it has to be something you really really want and thus give yourself to... so you will be supported. otherwise, if you aren't sure and you're taking one step forward and two steps back (yes and no) the energies won't know whether to support you or not.

you know, when there's no turning back ;)

was sharing all this with a friend last weekend when she was talking about dreams, and goals, and love. and i said, yup, just go right ahead and dream, and commit yourself to it. if it's the right thing for you, you'll get the support that you need.

but you don't have to take my word for it of course. (just tell me later what happens ;) )

test

dear friends,

let's see if this is true. two elements tomorrow: something startling/ surprising and communication.

report back to hq on the 10th with your revelations.

love,

scaredy pig

September 9: Mercury opposite Uranus
Talk about a day to remember! Communicative Mercury and startling Uranus will get together in an opposition, arguably one of the two most difficult aspects. This is the stuff that sudden, sometimes upsetting, communications are made of, and even complete strangers can easily end up on the receiving end. Of course, with the element of surprise so prominent, even if you know someone well, one or both of you may be prompted to impulsively confide something you never, ever thought you would. Go ahead. Make some coffee and share the news -- after you've extracted a solemn promise.

come as you are

thursdays, www.astro.com lets you read all your significant stars for the coming, days, weeks months. it's become a thursday habit, it kinda helps too. for instance, here're some of my long-term influences:

A delicate equilibrium
Valid during several months: During this time you may try to assert your individuality in a relationship. Sometimes this occurs when you feel that you are giving too much in a relationship and getting too little. Or the situation can be the exact opposite; that is, you have been giving too little, and your partner is resentful. Any successful relationship, especially a sexual one, is a delicate balance between the needs and desires of each person as an individual ego and their desire to achieve meaning through a relationship. The equilibrium is very delicate and easily upset now. At this time the two of you have to define what you want from each other. It is sometimes necessary to be quite explicit about what you want, because whatever is left unsaid may very well be the main source of conflict between you.

Mars Square Venus
activity period from 4 September 2005 until end of January 2006.


or this

Checking your attitudes
Valid during many months: This time is usually characterized by self-confidence and assurance. You are able to see where you are going now and to obtain help in getting there. At the same time you are very concerned with knowing yourself on a deep inward level, usually to facilitate achieving your ambition.

This is a time when you try to rely primarily on yourself. You will not refuse help from others, but it is more desirable to go it alone or at least on your own. You need to prove yourself to yourself and, to a lesser extent, to others. It is also necessary to establish patterns in your life now that will lead to accomplishment later on. You must develop disciplined work habits and learn specific ways to deal with situations that arise. Here too you must rely on yourself, because you will be able to judge your effectiveness only if you know that what you are doing is entirely your own.

Most people are rather conservative in their ways of doing things at this time. You may be rather reluctant to experiment with new ways, but that is a pitfall. This should be a time for making careful and considered changes. Such changes can be made voluntarily and without much difficulty now, but later they will be forced upon you in a manner that may be quite unpleasant. Getting into a rut now will ensure the survival of inappropriate behavior patterns, which will create trouble later on.

You should specifically examine your attitudes toward authority figures, work and achievement, responsibility, change and most important, although somewhat abstract, your attitude toward reality. If you are trying to live by attitudes that you have been told to have and that are not really yours, you will feel tense and uneasy when you think about them. Normally you suppress these feelings because you consider it important to maintain your attitudes. But these are the attitudes that have to be changed, because they signify that your thinking is divided about that issue and that you cannot really put energy into making that part of your life work.

Saturn Trine Med.Coeli
activity period from 5 September 2005 until middle of June 2006.

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Good and gone

Anyway, have talked to two friends lately whose stories have been prefaced with, "Maybe I'm just pms'ing, but..." Hehehe!

Me, I am premenstrual too (you know what they say, women who are with each other most times, will have harmonized monthly cycles, except maybe for the decidedly non-conformist who might decide to get pregnant just to be different :D :P) but I know crying over different things in the last three days isn't just the mens. It's been good though. Things just come up and I grieve over one, and get clarified with myself over another, and sit with myself over still another, and they're gone for good(er) that way when they're gone.

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Verb

and then too understanding is to-do/ doing/ being done/
a dynamic, not as is, not found still the same
where you left it last
a process, not static, flowing
as we are speaking
i understand you.

but i am not you.
and this too we must understand.

***


Mindful Being

Three Wednesdays ago, had a class exercise on mindful eating (silent chewing, nourishing, savoring, still).

Yesterday, we did mindful being. The instructions were to sit with yourself, keep yourself company, feel how you are, how's your heart's beating, and just to follow what comes up.

Me and I, we had a concert (blame it on the rockstar inxs episode i caught before class). We were sat, nodding head:

Come as you are, as you were,
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend, as an old enemy.
Take your time, hurry up
The choice is yours, don't be late.
Take a rest, as a friend, as an old memory
memory, memory, memory

Twas' fun, me and I we enjoyed each other.

(there's more to the exercise but let's save that for next time.)

'coz i've got one hand in your pocket

'coz i've got one hand in your pocket
Originally uploaded by Pansy.

and the other one's flagging a taxi cab. ;))

how old

have asked hb to ask their drug pusher for episodes of one tree hill. hehehe! just kidding just kidding. am too busy to go to jail.

haley's mom: if you can drive at 16, vote at 18, drink at 21 and retire at 65, how old do you have to be to know your love is real?

(on haley and nathan getting married too young.)

and that's for you too priestess, how old does he have to be for you to know he's wonderful? hehehe :D cheers.

and

sometimes, i can break my heart all by myself,

company not necessary.

*then, i want to sabunot me*

ez-em'd

and on a more flighty note,

i got myself a yellow umbrella (:D)

and matching wallets for
she-whose-wallet's-coin-compartment-has-torn-asunder (it's all coins! hahaha)
and he-whose-wallet-was-lost-last-week-and-whose-multiple-id cards-are happily-touring-the-world-somewhere

been shoppin' indeedy :)

spooked

sometimes, it's only really possible to mourn how bad things were when things are so much better.

because when things are blue, you try to gather your inner resources and look straight ahead to when things have to eventually get better. and you can't allow yourself the space to go to pieces.

and sometimes, when you're at a good pitstop, you smile and shrug and shred the tissues, helpless in hope, that really, the sun will continue to shine as brightly and as warmly as it lately has.

especially when you realize, that yes, you have always always always known what it was that you've wanted all along, anyway. to you it's always been pretty clear.

and you continue to hold out for it, for just what it is that you've always wanted.

knowing that what's meant to be will happen, and the only thing that you've got to do after all, anyhow, and anywho and at any time, is be who you are.

and when you've done what you can, laid bare your good intentions, learned from your mistakes, you now know enough to let things be.

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

By Maroon Five

mahal ko

ang mayor ng new orleans.

mabigat ang kanyang pasan-pasan.
hindi siya puti. (pogi.)

(at mahal ko kasi ang lousiana dahil sa divine secrets of the yaya sisterhood, si vivi at sidda walker, naalala niyo? tsaka isa yon sa pinaka-cool na lugar sa US hindi ba?)

lab is

going out into the rain again for dinner, even when you've already bought and brought home dinner.

hahahahaha

;))

p.s. promise, i only ate one :D

This is the pic that accompanies the preceding post.

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Originally uploaded by Pansy.

THE BRASS MONKEYS behind a girl. hehehe.

Hitting the Brass Notes

Followed the traveling shades and its various pet persons to Monk’s inside Wasabi for a full-on Brass Monkeys set (in suits). Yes, sometimes we venture out of our QC hideaway, in high heels and all, on a busy rainy Friday night, and part with our very limited monies, for a good cause! (In this case, the traveling shades that soon will be traveling again.)

Groovy, the band opened with the heartwarmers:

Somewhere beyond the sea
Somewhere waitin' for me
My lover stands on golden sand
And watches the ships that go sailin'...that go sailin'....


Fly me to the moon
Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars
In other words, hold my hand.

Sure, yes we’ll hold your hand! Even thru the all-religious:

Oh, when the saints go marching in,
Oh, when the saints go marching in
Lord how I want to be in that number
When the saints go marching in


Or that dang catchy colonial:

He wanna be Americano
Americano, Americano
He wants to drive a Cadillac
Now he's chasing showgirls
Smokin' Camels,whiskey and soda
Now he's never goin' back

At breaktime, this Japanese guy on his way out the door takes a look at my dinner and went: aaaah, donburi. Gave him a full smile, then he goes and gestures that it will make my tummy big. Waaaaaah.

Getting back to the romance, friend of friends jammed with:

Yes you're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

Ending the song on his knees, with a small opened box with a ring. Yes he proposed at Monk's :D. Congrats you two.

And and and that woman we refused to give up a chair for (sorry!) went up the stage and in her throaty voice, went:

I don't remember what day it was
I didn't notice what time it was
All I know is that I fell in love with you
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Every day's a new day in love with you
With each day comes a new way of loving you
Every time I kiss your lips my mind starts to wander
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you


Had us all on our feet, singing along with her:

I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But, darling, not as much as tomorrow


Goodie! Love that song! Loved that ever since we all sat around the conference table to watch Ally McBeal.

Had another song from her that went:

You must take the A train
To go to Sugar Hill way up in Harlem
If you miss the A train
You'll find you missed the quickest way to Harlem

Oh honey, you don’t know, but yes, we are on the A train.

Sat the next one out and observed the boob-shaking brass monkeys:

Exit, light
Enter, Night
Take my hand
we're off to never-never land

Yes, that’s what you see when your friends are all dancing and you’re sitting right in front of them. Hehehe.

Band said they were singing a Pinoy song dedicated to this cute couple. Wooohooo, we cheered and prepared to dance to another catchy tune… trapped.

O kay gulo o kay gulo
Naiinis na nga ako
Sa dinami dami ba naman ng babae sa buong mundo
Sabihin mo na pare
Si aida o si lorna o si fe?

Uh-oh. Major trouble. We could get thrown out of the coven for this (Dark Lord: did you know that adultery is also violence against women?)

Chester rewrote the lyrics:

Si Aida o si lorna o si fe…scratch that… iisa lang talaga ang mahal ko!

WOOHOOO. Now we will starve for a week :D.